The resolve is being tested...

Well, folks, I don't know what I can do anymore.

I have made some mistakes when it comes to my writing and with my life getting as hectically busy as it has been- such as the stress of getting my job back with a five-night-shift schedule, getting ready to go on a trip here soon. Then spring break came around, which involves my son getting a week-long break.

Let me point something out, I only have one working computer and at times, I tend to forget that I have a functional Chromebook to write from. So, I'm absently doing nothing while I let my son uses my computer most of the day to either play games or surf youtube.

I don't want to say that I'm starting to get burned out with not only the constant strain of needing to work full time, no sense of privacy at home, family obligations and my possible ADHD has been getting increasingly worse. which also hasn't been fair to me.

then, as mentioned, I made a major writing mistake by picking someone to read my struggling story that apparently is, realistically, far below the smash hits that are on this platform. Not trying to attack or put anybody down, It just isn't majorly fair that apparently my writing skill isn't groundbreaking or my choice of characters or what I choose to write just gets overlooked because of what?

my writing isn't phenomenal? that I like to incorporate unique characters and ideas that just get pushed aside because I tend to draw in picky readers? Look, I'm sorry that I can't create 1,000+ like stories that aren't a part of a major fan series or any other desirable subject matter.

I just don't know if I want to continue writing something that is just gonna get overlooked because there are way more appealing stories and series out there. Oh, trust me, I've been trying to read stuff too. Yet, I've been so busy in mind and life that I haven't been able to have that free-from-a-normal-life time schedule to drone away the hours on reading or writing. It just isn't in the works for me.

Even right now I'm just hitting a road block that is just putting a major drain on my confidence in writing anything really. I just don't know anymore.

pardon my rant folks, I just need some time to try to rally my moral to continue anything at this point.