My R · 9:55pm Mar 22nd, 2021
Apparently there is a song called My R, about a suicidal person who stops several suicides.
I did not name my account after that song, as the person who introduced me to it thought. My first initial is R and I am bad at naming things. Clearing up any misconceptions, I have never been or known anyone who was suicidal. (To to the best of my knowledge anyway.)
If I were to try to kill myself an audience would not be enough to stop me, though I might try to stop them. It took me until the second girl to figure out the singer wanted to jump. Half of me kept pondering why she kept leaving after clearing out the spot. I think the answer is they were not as sure as they thought that they wanted to die, using the interruptions as an excuse. But if that is the case, why are they mad at the interruptions? Perhaps because they thought the others had it too easy to be depressed?
I try really hard to ignore any painful emotions that try to reach me, don't I? I go overboard analyzing things so the feelings are deadened. Maybe that is part of why I don't understand people, because I am shutting away part of myself? What do you think?
