Overall Update 01

Ok so here's the deal shit's still crazy for me and I'm still having writers block but I've managed to start that story I mentioned and got 1 100th of the first chapter done kinda I'm thinking of redoing that but I'm shelving that project for now I did a lot of thinking about this story in my free time enough that I started doing notes for the whole thing planning at least 100 chapters in advance it's no where near coherent and what is actually story boarded is not enough for even one chapter to be honest but that's a problem for later I'm actually shelving that project for now and starting a new project inspired and taking a lot and I mean a lot of inspiration from some of my fave stories from this site I'll list every story that inspired even minor details in the description once the first chapter goes up but I've only got a basic concept for it at the moment also this story is going to be my main focus going forward all others will be second to it permanently also I'm going to be writing this story with out a defined end in mind as such it will be in as close to an arked format as I can make it now I don't plan on restricting my self to completing all plot points before an ark finishes but the main conflict will always have as satisfying an end as I can provide with my limited writing skills the main point of writing the story like this is to give my self something no other story or writer has provided me with so far a story that could go on forever but never leaves you feeling like it's just over stuffed with filler now I know I'm going to fail at this BUT I don't care I'm doing it anyway why because I can't actually succeed at making a story like that with out royally fucking it up first so I'ma just do it and lastly I've realized why I'm having my writers block I have no one to bounce Idea's off and sadly I not only do my best work when I do but ah ... I'm a be honest I can't stay focused if I don't have some one to chit chat with when I hit a wall with my personality I'd slam into that crap and sit there trying to punch it down for like a week before I look to the left and see that I can just go around it now I have some one in mind to help with this but we have to figure out how to get around his internet issues which with where he lives right now this might take a bit to get me back and writing again see I have tones of free time to write and I want to use it but ah well ... 1. I'm lazy 2. life it tends to get in the way mainly by giving me shit to do only when I'm in the mood to actually sit down and write these stories and 3. I have major focusing issues like I can sit here and write like 4 chapters over a 10,000 words or more each in like 1 to 1 and a half days I have the time but with out some one to bounce Idea's off first blank I draw or first time I think something I write sounds dumb I'd instantly switch to anything else and not think about writing for the rest of the day how do I know this I spent the last month the first month since holidays started back around Halloween to be exact that I had time motivation and peace and quiet enough to write and I was doing just that every 3 days or so I would sit down start to write hit a wall and just forget I wanted to do that for the next 2 days or so cause I would hit that wall of either frustration self doubt or just outright Blanking you know that moment when your supposed to be doing something and your brain just completely shuts down for no apparent reason for instants your playing a game for like the hundredth time an you suddenly forget how to hit people after doing just that for like five hours that's blanking anyway that's all the major stuff for now if anybody acutely reads all this thanks for hearing me out and hopefully I can have an actual progress report on one of my stories by the end of the month and chapters coming out by the end of the next if neither happens well ... I'll figure something out eventually laters :D