I keep telling myself "I should be productive" · 10:41am Jan 16th, 2021
And by productive, I mean write. I do want to write, there's a pokemon gen 8 rewrite I wanna do, I want to continue Misty Morals, I want to, but I haven't had the energy or drive to write lately.
I've also been really tired lately, dunno why, I don't exactly do anything... I've nearly fallen asleep in my seat a few times over the last few days.
I dunno if the forum shitstorm from December has caused this depressive slump (I can't think of any other way to describe being blah and emotionally flat day in, day out), or if I'm burnt out, or just having a bad day that's hanging around.
I hate this, I know I'm better than this, but I'm cranky, and tired, and I can't be bothered to do much besides watch YouTube all day. I can't take a nap because Mum sleeps during the day, so I need to be up in case we get a phone call. Plus I have somewhat strict mealtimes because if I don't eat as soon as I get hungry, I start feeling queasy, gassy, and might accidentally give myself reflux from eating a larger-than-normal meal.
I'm just... Tired and cranky and rambling into the void...
I just wanna write the pokemon fic because I'm annoyed at the lack of Piers shipfics. I think Piers is neat, he's like, the only Pokemon character I've given a shit about since Grovyle from Pokemon Mystery Dungeon: Explorers of the Sky, and Mewtwo from Pokemon the First Movie. I don't usually care about the human characters in pokemon, except for Piers now...
Piers is awesome.
Well dragon, I will give an advice of what I have keep telling me all the time... Sometimes you cannot write, even if you really want too... Forcing yourself to write something who wouldn't come with the flow would make you feel terrible with yourself and even makes the story not enjoyable... And while having problems of always being tired... I know how it does feel. I've been working a lot, and even if I wanted to focus on writing some specific fictions... I cannot do it... so I work in another project just to make my mind working...
Some times it would be good if you do something unusual and change the pace completely... Like, doing another hobby or focusing in some other kinds of things... Some times doing some arts, creating songs, or even trying a new recipe or going to a place you never went before is a thing to change your mind completely...
And even if that doesn't work... you don't need to blame yourself... it happens with everyone... sometimes your mind don't work because it got tired and want a rest... and by watching too much videos on youtube, makes it tired as well...
Try something different, like reading something you never did before... People who likes to read manga never read a novel before, so I reccomend read great chinese and korean novels or read something you never did before.
I hope this advice go to you... Keep awesome.
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Uh thanks?
It's just frustrating because I don't work, I don't do anything all day, and yet I still wake up in the morning feeling like crap. I stress about it more because I know what I can get done when I have the energy and I've been like this for the vast majority of the last few years.
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I can understand, usually when something like this happens, it's a good idea to start something you never did before as hobby, some people would try to do something really different. My mother usually cooks a cake or brigadeiro. Or something sweet to eat.
Or people would like to make painting, play videogames, or even a cardgame. LOL
Well, sometimes you felt horrible to not make something, but being stressed by it is even worse because you get angry, you don't do anything and you feel even worse by getting worried about that. Trust me... Usually when something like that happens. I like to take a walk even with mask, go to a candy store or even to buy an ice cream and enjoy the walking or even going to a library to buy a new book...
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I can't really do much, usually I just find something to watch or a fanfic to read since I'm usually too tired, or have a headache that prevents me from doing much else.
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Hmmm... That really sucks, hey, do you read some kind of mangas, novels or something like that? Because usually it was what helped me when I get bored and don't have anything else to read.
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Nope, Manga gives me a headache, and I don't really have the money to buy books... I don't think I can read physical novels anymore without hurting myself (I tend to hunch over when reading books or playing handheld games, which I can't do because I'll just give myself chest pain), so I stick to fanfiction.
I read fanfiction on AO3 or here on FiMfic using my PS4 web browser.
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Well. I mean digital novels. Like novel updates, or some sites for read novels.
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I don't use those, not sure how they work.