I cant seem to be happy much anymore. · 10:21pm Nov 10th, 2020
I may have short bursts of joy sometimes, but nowadays its mostly depression and frustration. Stuck at home all day, every day unemployed, while everyone else is posting on social media about how well their lives are going! Went to the Hoover dam, went to Colorado, got a puppy, married my high school crush, got my dream job! Now its my turn. Unemployed, rarely leaves the house, single father financially struggling right now, never visited any places beyond the NC border and probably never will because of money, (everything always boils down to fucking money!) due to lack of sleep, exercise and poor diet, possibly declining health, extreme envy at what my old friends have accomplished, and possibly homeless/suicidal in 10 years. Dont bother pitying me. Im not important.
I pray for you man. I believe the Lord put you here for a reason, and when this pandemic calms down, you'll have a great life.
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Even before Covid, life started to suck. My grandparents died from cancer in 2018, my uncle died fro kidney failure from alcohol in 2019, my 4 year old cousin SOMEHOW died from running into a wall in 2019, and my dog had to be euthanized out of nowhere after his hind legs mysteriously went limp.
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Sorry to hear things are that hard for you. I'll pray for you. Even if you say not to.
I unfortunately know rather intimately how it feels. It's depression, and it's going to just get worse if it's left untreated. You may have to apply for disability insurance to help your father financially. I do warn you, though; the government will fight you every step of the way on it. You will need lawyers, and you will need to be patient. It could take a year or more before they accept your request. There is no easy way to make your life better, you will have to fight for it.
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How have things been for you?