Time..... it has a fun way of moving..... doesn't it?

Yeah..........

In all honesty..... I..... I got nothing to say really...

So I guess i can just be blunt

So if anyone has payed attention they would have noticed that pretty much since my last blog back in Jun 2019, I haven't really done anything. Sure I've been on the site practically every day to read others story, but besides that, NOTHING. Not exactly proud by that. I'm also not really ashamed of it. No screw that I've been purposely avoiding it....

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Bluntly,

I've been just spending time reflecting and growing in the world. I've kind of lost touch with the stories I was writing on here... More like... ignoring them... because why do you have to worry about something if it ain't there? Except I kept them up as incomplete because I know I would want to come back to them.... Just when I felt I could justify the correct time to do so..... BUT I never could as I just piled on things in life, Like getting around to actually driving, uning my college GPA, and what not.... K probably that College GPA in retrospect.... and now I'm just off track. Though there is nothing stopping me from just deleting that. Anyways at of all that time being on everyday I've just avoided anything on my account. I kind of avoided it so much that I lost some of the Idea for some of my Stories from my 'Plan Of Stories To Write about Ponies' trademark never pending. I did try on one of them which was 'A PMC'. I haven't touched that since(besides right now to check) Aug 2019.... Just because I ended up rewriting the chapter about 15 times. Never being happy with the result and quality. Though that was just Bull reasons for not continuing to work on. The community on here is here for to just read stories from others while dreaming of their own. I should just post what I feel at least comfortable with instead of feeling it's perfect because what would be the point.

Anyways.... I still hold some feelings for my stories even the ones I haven't even released. I've been tempted in the past to try writing a blog or updating the statuses to hiatus. But I just couldn't (not that I hadn't tried.), sure it was stuff that seems kind of dumb but everyone starts somewhere. I cringe most of them time when I think back to my thought process back then..... even thought it was pretty much last year.

Honestly.... not sure why I typed this all out.... probably some moment of realizing how long its been and some form of early mid-life crises induced by a Pandemic...... oh yeah that's a thing..... I miss in person classes...

I'm WRITING this.... because I finally sat back after all the stupid craziness and thought about what the hell I'm doing. I know I've matured more since 2 years ago... Hell I've learned that since I don't know what age I've stopped caring about my life's future and just lived it day by day. Hell I still can barely plan ahead in time.

So..... I might write again.... I'm just regaining my confidence I lost at some point in this past year. I've actually been writing out some stories I won't release to just see if I still can write(even though it's been following a map of what has happened, HOI4:EAW Voyage of.... that was a weird but enjoyable game) . So I'll probably have something by winter.... No.... I WILL have something out by winter. I new story or chapter I don't care which but god be I WILL.

Though before I do that I want to do some things.... Though that'll wait till sometime today after I get up it's already pretty late..... pretty much 1am and probably not fully thought out or coherent but whatever.

damn was I a panicky idiot back then....probably work on that trust also

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Anyways I hope everyone is doing good and making attempts. See ya in by Christmas.

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[JohnstoneT]

K.... Guess I typed this out last night... I'll make it more clear down here. Just gonna number it.

1. I didn't feel like working on my stories, But always planned to continue them.
2. I've Reflected because I got nothing else to do because of the virus and realized how dumb I was/am.
3. My planning skills suck and I'm working on that.
4. I'll get back to posting updates/chapters/stories soon.
5. I've given myself a hard set goal to have something by Christmas. Most likely a Equestria At War story based off a 1.7 game. Wingbardia is always an enemy of harmony.
6. I won't be trying to fully perfect a chapter.... 4 months and 15 rewrites was fun...
7. I got to stop doing stuff after 11 pm.... The unorganized blog a good example

Annnd that should be the jist of it. Or what I could figure from my half a sleep jumping around blog.