Honestly about done.. · 11:20pm Jul 14th, 2020
The title says it all, I'm honestly about done with this site and everyone on it. Why is this the case? Well, I am someone with autism, and when i joined in 2015, i was going through rough times and was basically left out and excluded all around, and was dealing with severe depression and feelings of lonliness as a result. In an attempt to have self therapy, I signed up here and began writing fanfiction about my experiences to try and vent and get some understanding and empathy, and maybe make some friends among like-minded people.
But instead of that happening, everyone and their mother took it upon themselves to literally SMOTHER every one of my stories in dislikes... and even when I literally asked for others why this was happening in the author's notes, and tried to explain that this was my attempt to convey my experiences... virtually no one even treated me with enough respect to actually listen... and I got next to no feedback... and the dislikes actually ramped up. And you know what's really sickening about this? I originally wrote those stories in an attempt to combat feelings of wholesale rejection and isolation... and this community, in their obsession with disliking without explanation, turned the story, which was supposed to be a solution to the issue, into a source of more emotional pain, pain which I didn't need because I was already dealing with more than enough.
Of course, after digging down and learning more about this site, I really don't know why I'm surprised by this. After all, I've read multiple stories with multiple structure errors that make them harder to read, and i've seen multiple disturbing stories show up in my various searches over the years, and in each case they often have very high ratings,, much higher than mine at the least. And meanwhile, me, and people like me https://www.fimfiction.net/user/302115/Artist (they didn't put me up to sharing their channel here so don't you DARE send any hate you get from this post their way) who have disabilities and are trying to use this writing to convey our experiences to others, get literally SHIT on by everyone here. Because our stories are worse than stories with readability issues and with legit disturbing content right? No... I think the real answer is that this community is toxic (and potentially ableist) in general and clearly has serious priority issues. And I for one simply don't see much reason to prioritize writing for this site any longer. All being on here has done is destroyed my motivation to write at all and made me question whether anyone will ever hear me out or accept me, and all around been a negative experience for me.
If anyone is seriously interested in continuing to read my works... I will probably be continuing on other sites, and you are more than welcome to PM me and ask for links or look up the story titles and find them that way. As for fimfiction though... fuck this place. I'm beyond sick of being treated like shit, excluded, and feeling dehumanized by people who used to say 'love and tolerate' and who are fans of a show that claims to promote friendship, when they themselves clearly haven't learned the slightest thing abut it from the show. If you want to stay on here and continue to deal with that toxicity... by all means go ahead, it's your life, you choose how to spend it... But I for one simply have no interest in subjecting myself to an environment which has hurt me this much and which seems to be mainly filled with people who act like highschoolers with all their petty cliquishness and drama. I am an adult... and I'd prefer to spend my free time around other adults who act maturely thank you very much rather than around a group full apparent manchildren who don' realize class was out a long time ago and even as adults are more focused on hating my stories becaue OMG, Sunset Shimmer is mean in it or OMG, it's equestria girls or OMG, it's HIE or whatever petty reason others who have reviewed it have suspected than for actually legitimate reasons like them being written poorly or being legitimately offensive or racist or whatnot.
Am I saying everyone on here is like that? No, of course not... but the ones who are are no doubt quite prevalent, and in any case I just have no interest in dealing with them anymore or their hate anymore.
And not even one of you offered any support... you all are the worst.
I agree
I agree with OP's comment on this thread, if none of you can offer emotional support in their time of need like he was requesting, you definitely do suck.
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Sorry the people here were too pathetic to do the right thing