What’s Going On With Me? · 1:53am Jun 7th, 2020
Hello to everyone who reads this. This is my first blog post so this should be rather interesting. This is a little important if you read my fanfic Discord’s Little Butterfly so I’d suggest staying to listen to what I have to say. However, it’s your choice really so do as you please.
I said once before that I planned this story to be my main project right now and it still is. However, that doesn’t stop me from pausing and taking breaks from it as well. I assure you that I’m indeed almost done the next chapter and I hope to put it out sometime soon but certain things sort of interfere with that.
Of course, I live in Canada and school goes a little longer than the states. I have online school until June 17th and I’m already behind on massive amounts of work. It makes it difficult for me to work on what I really want to work on and puts my passions aside. I hate it but it’s what I have to do I suppose.
Second, my grandfather has stage four cancer and will be dying soon. As you can guess, this year has literally turned into nothing but a grey blur of disappointment and depression for me and I’m sure for many as well. It doesn’t help that Covid19 has to exist right now and make it impossible for me to visit him in his last months of life. Perhaps even days or weeks..
Third, my best friend of two years as decided he doesn’t want anything to do with me and as disappeared with no explanation except wanting to leave. He was my main support through all of this so it really sucks.
All of this as become a giant rock for me to carry on my back and it hurts. It really does. Not to mention that it literally is almost impossible to find motivation to write these days. All I want to do is escape into my world of writing. My motivation only comes back in the most random of times when I don’t want it to and that’s when I write.
Anyways..I’ve said enough already. Like I said, I’m not giving up on my fanfics, I just might struggle a bit upon releasing chapters and everything else but I’m not giving up. I refuse to.
Yeah. Thanks very much for the info on how your life is going. Indeed, sounds pretty rough, but I am hoping things DO get better for you.
And, yeah, I can also respect the unpredictability of inspiration and how real world matters need to take top priority. One of the reasons I prefer quality to speed.
Just do your best to remain calm and don't feel like you need to be in a hurry to write. It will get done when it gets done. I can respect that.
*hugs!
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I appreciate that someone understands. I've noticed with my other stories I wasn't rushing to get things done because I knew I didn't get much attention through those and not many people were eagerly waiting to read the next. With this story, I've got more attention than I thought I ever would and I almost feel like I have to write to impress. Do this, do that, don't take too long. Then again, sometimes it's just my mind speaking for me and not what my readers are saying. With more attention comes more stress I suppose. Not that I don't appreciate it, I just worry that people will get tired of reading the story when chapters aren't released fast enough.
I'm happy that people understand though that I have a life as well and things are hard right now.
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*Hug* ^w^
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Hope your afternoon is going well!