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Dusk Melody


I wish I was enough. But I'm not and never will be.

More Blog Posts177

  • 15 weeks
    Goodbye

    I tried
    I'm tired
    I'm sorry

    32 comments · 794 views
  • 32 weeks
    Looking for a story

    I'm trying to find a story I read a long time ago.

    It was about Spike and Twilight in a master / submissive relationship, with Spike's Dom side like a different persona.

    Help!

    0 comments · 131 views
  • 114 weeks
    I'm Tired

    I'm tired.
    Tired of the constancy,
    the constancy of judgment.
    Tired of hiding,
    hiding who I really am.
    Tired of trying to stay strong.

    I'm tired.
    Tired of pretending,
    pretending to be happy when all I want to do is cry.
    Tired of not being able to let go,
    let go of all the pain and emotions that consume me.
    Tired of feeling worthless.

    I'm tired.
    Tired of being put down,

    Read More

    9 comments · 498 views
  • 154 weeks
    A Short Hiatus

    Hello to all my dear readers!

    This is just a little missive to let you all know that there will be a short hiatus. The reason for this is simple. Burn out. Since last July, my co author Zervon Tora and I have published content every week, and to be honest it's getting a bit much, and I really hate my keyboard at the moment.

    Read More

    4 comments · 319 views
  • 179 weeks
    New Story - Strawberry Moon

    My latest story, Strawberry Moon, can be found here!

    Here's what it's about.

    Life is going well for Darkstar. She's part of a loving family, she's about to begin college, and her relationship with her boyfriend Slate is stronger than ever.

    Read More

    0 comments · 247 views
May
15th
2020

good bye · 11:48pm May 15th, 2020

67 views.

thats how much my latet story had got. 67.

whats the damn point.

mot like any of youy will miss me.

watever

Report Dusk Melody · 346 views ·
Comments ( 19 )

Goodbye and goodluck in whatever else you will do.

I just feel like this site is dying down. It's not a personal thing.

Don’t leave. You still write great stories.

I wish you luck Dusk Melody I am sad to see you go but you must do what is best for you.

67 is still a lot of people. It might not seem like a lot, but it means that for a significant period of time, you captured the interest of the equivalent of a large room full of people. That's definitely something, even if it's not what you were hoping for.

So you're willing to leave just because you think 67 views are not good enough for you?

Very well... I hope you find what you're looking for.

Because I don't follow 'quitters'.

Like I said last time, I'm not going to try and stop you, you do what you want, people change over time and sometimes other people don't realise entirely how permanent it might be and that includes me.

If this is enough to make you leave, than yeah, okay. I doubt anyone is actually going to be on FIMFiction forever and people are going to leave at some point.

I'll still miss you, but I've got to admit that my fic tastes aren't as broad as they used to be, they don't quite align with yours as much. I changed too and this is probably the most I can do to help.

Well, boyo, if that's how you feel then I guess I can only wish you luck on your next endeavor

I love the wildfire stories, still read through them, I have got far back on my reading list due to RL being a pain, but you are still high up on it

You have over six hundred followers and only got 67 views? How many MLP:FIM groups did you put this story in? Did you promote this story?
Did you put this story on Deviant art? (This might sound like a weird question, but sometimes I get more views over there for my stories than over here. Not often, but any action is better than no action.)
If I gauged my self-worth as a writer based on the number of views I got, I would have quit a long time ago. I write to keep from feeling bad, to make my noisy brain quiet down.
Why do you write? Is it out of love? To get attention? To make yourself feel better? To have something positive to look forward to?
You need to examine these questions if you really want to figure out why you do what you do.

If a story fails to meet your expectations, you could find a constructive criticism group to critique it. It could help you get an outside view of what might have dissuaded attracting readers. Also could be more and more of your readers are just bored of the internet and happy they are able to finally start leaving their homes again...

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If I gauged my self-worth as a writer based on the number of views I got, I would have quit a long time ago.

I don't have any self worth.

Why do you write?

I write because I enjoy it, as much as I enjoy anything. It's therapy for my depressed brain.

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I'm sorry.

I shouldn't write a blog while depressed and drunk.

It wasn't a good bye from this site. It was from life.

I'm sorry to bother you all. Still here. Existing.

Less angst please, and kick the drama llama out the door.

Aw Dusk, but you have so many other good stories which have done really well. Believe in yourself. :heart:

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Don't be sorry. It's not like you can control depression. I can't imagine how it feels to be so depressed you wan't to give up on life, and I certainly won't blame you for it. (Hugs)

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Yesterday's episode just crept up on me from nowhere. I'm over the trough, or under it, or whatever you call it. I think I'm back up to zero at the moment, neither negative nor positive. So...a plus, I think.

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