Status Report · 5:43pm May 8th, 2020
I realize that I’d normally use my blogging section to post reviews or what my favorite videos are, but this time...there are things that I’d like to come clean about.
Over a week ago, I did some consulting with some of my friends on FiMFiction.net after reading comments from people saying that there were things about myself that I needed to improve. Those friends being BradyBunch and Dinodisneylover1. Each of them told me that I should cut back on the comments and posts detailing how much I’m against things like homosexuality. Another thing that came to light was that I had been backsliding Dramamaster829 out of anger-filled spite towards him for a message he sent me a while back and the rather disagreeable atmosphere he seemed to be creating.
A few days ago, I also had an unexpected talk with my parents, where some less than friendly conversations that I had on Twitter with another user named The Flower Doe (@MaddieDoereyme) came to their attention. These conversations particularly revolved around how evil I thought the act of homosexuality was, and despite not having anything against the people who are gay, TFD consistently called me homophobic. Unfortunately, our conflicts escalated to where we called each other names and accused one another of being people of cold-hearts.
I never told my parents about what was happening with me on Twitter because it was something I thought that I could take care of myself and pull through alone.
To tell you the truth...
Each of those events of confidings were significant moments that helped me realize how much of a jerk I have obviously been coming across as. All of this being because of many of the things I posted or said on the internet.
The biggest problem was that my time posting my thoughts on what I think of things like homosexuality was turning me into a person that was far from the guy people I’ve grown up with and talked to in person have known me by, and I’ve been letting my anger and lack of patience control me. The person that people outside of the internet have known me by is someone who’s kind, loving, caring, generous, humorous, and witty. That’s the person I want to keep being, and the one I want people on the internet to know me by.
I still don’t see homosexuality as a good thing, but I’ll try to be much more respectful and understanding towards the people who are gay, as well as less overreactive. I’ll make sure to keep a cool head and not get worked up over something so small like I’ve often been doing. The latter thing I said is exactly what I should’ve been doing in the first place, and it’s what God himself would want as well.
If I recall correctly, God wants those who follow Him to not be so hostile towards others and treat them like the brothers they truly are, no matter the beliefs.
I don’t expect the people I’ve fought against to forgive me for my past actions nor do I expect a rekindling, but from now on...I’ll be doing my best to not go emotionally overboard and be as respectful as possible. I want to show everyone that I’m not the kind of guy people are negatively making me out to be and that I’m not some kind of ticking time bomb, because I’m pretty sure that isn’t who I am.
😔I’m really sorry for all I’ve done. Truly I am.
Outside of that...
I deeply miss going to see my chiropractor. For much of my life, I’ve been suffering from a combination of scoliosis and arthritis, so starting a year or two ago, I’ve been visiting a chiropractor to help me out. Because of the COVID-19 pandemic, though...I’ve been unable to make appointments. I’ve been having particular trouble with the back of my neck lately and it’s killing me.
Always deliver the truth in charity and treat everyone with kindness.
It takes a strong man to admit when he's made a mistake, God bless you.
So sorry to hear about your pain, I'll pray for you.
God has promised forgiveness of sins to those who truly repent!
That's a good first step.
It's nice to know you've seen your mistakes. It's even better to know that you want to improve. Perfection is pending in this life, but it starts with the inside of you. Good luck.
To be honest: I'm more concerned with your health issues at the moment
Yes, I'll certainly agree that this is all a step forward and at the end of the day we all just want a little respect and some space to be who we are: but you've only got one run through this world. You gotta take care of yourself first.
What are you doing for stretches and exercise on your own time?
Even just five minutes a day of stretching and controlled breathing can make a difference with muscle and joint pain. Obviously more is better but pace yourself if you need to.
Speaking of which, a lot of neck pain can stem from poor posture.
Stand in front of a mirror. Stand up straight, shoulders back. Like a hero facing the camera. Deep breaths, confident breaths, all heroic like. Eye contact with yourself. Just you taking a stand against your ailments.
Not a fix: but every little bit helps.
Ok good to hear
Yeah, the anonymity of the internet makes making inappropriate remarks on impulse way too tempting. Glad to see that you're trying to keep that under control.
On a lighter note, I miss church and going to restaurants on Sundays, and my family's new dog is kinda driving me just a teeny, tiny bit crazy. So, besides your bad back, how have you been holding up.
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In terms of my back, I think I’m doing okay. My Dad’s pretty strong and he provides quite a great cracking. I just wish I had something to relax the back of my neck from the feelings of stress and tension, because it’s definitely been killing me the most.
We all make mistakes from time to time. When it comes to disliking sin, it can be quite tricky not to fall into anger, which in of itself is a sin.
Well, unless you're me but I'm kind of the "do not judge lest ye be judged" kinda guy. I leave the judging to God himself.
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Thank you for the comment. As well as the advice you gave me about my neck.
As a matter of fact, before the pandemic started my chiropractor showed me some forms of stretching to help ease the stiffness in my back, and they’ve been really beneficial.
For instance, there’s this one method where if you hold on to something like a doorframe, you can twist your back.
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Thank you. Thank you all.
See? I knew it.
This is why I still don't give up on ya. Sticking with you till the end of the line.
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Well the first part of improving comes with recognizing that it is needed
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Free hanging also stretches your back while aligning your spine, and can help drain excess spinal fluids if stagnation is an issue.
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Thank you, my old friend.
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Like today?
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Yes, which according to this blog you have done, why I was acknowledging that.
Everybody has different opinions. I respected that. Heck, I'm not a fan of homosexuality, but that doesn't mean I'm a homophobe.
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That’s what I think too. Of course, people call me homophobic because of my viewpoints, and I realized after a while that it was never my place to be making such posts and comments.
Sadly, opposition can raise hostility within us. While on this earth, we are at war with the evil spiritual powers, and, as in all wars, the conflict can lead us to hate the other side. It's wrong, but that's sin nature
Praise be to God, He has given us Himself, that we may love Him and be saved through Him. Remember what God has done, and the debt we all owe (remember the servant who owed 10,000 talents?), and remember that other people, who seem to be the enemy, are merely marionettes on an evil spiritual string. Praise be to God again, maybe those strings can be cut by His grace.
Remember that man is made in the image of God (Genesis 1:26-27), that we may reflect upon His glory and worship Him. Remember the holy goal at stake, not the enmity of the conflict at hand. If a situation is getting heated, it is possible (especially on the internet) to withdraw, calm down, think it over, and start again.
People may continue to call you awful things. Don't give the enemy that foothold in your life, or it can become destructive. Regardless of whether or not they cease, we keep loving, believing, praying, preaching. God is the one who gives success, and the eventual triumph is greater by far than the small things and torments we suffer here (2 Corinthians 4:16-18).