The virus is getting to my writing · 6:44pm Apr 11th, 2020
I've had to rewrite the chapter I am writing for the third, or maybe fourth time. The tone changed horribly, and I have shocked at it and myself. My story has never had violence before, and twice I have written the chapter with brutal content. Now to have it in stories is fine, but here it would be introducing Godzilla to the Teletubbies (except that sounds like a GREAT idea). Everyone watching would be like "where did That come from?"
And i realize its the frustration and anger I have been experiencing as a result of the whole Covid 19 situation. For me the frustration is really from people at my job. Mine is one of the few allowed to stay open and the customers have swarmed us and have been SO entitled on their orders not getting EXACTLY when they want them. But we don't sell food, and the emergency items are what 99% of these people are NOT ordering. Sorry to vent. My pace has been frantic when I' at work, and I come home so fried I have actually struggled to find things to help me wind down. Few things have been working.
So I have to write this nee chapter in a gentler spirit. There are other ways for a character to fight an opponent, and I don't want bloodshed in this Equestria. Even if it is only in someone's fight within their mind.
Start up a different story where you can write all that violence in and allow yourself to get it all out? You don't have to share or post it, just having the fluff story to vent in can be cathartic.
5240538
And NOW I have been reminded of why I need to start journaling again. Thank you for that!
Also, great suggestion on the story.
I understand the feeling of the virus seeping in. I work in an essential business as well though thankfully my customers have been pretty nice.
I know how you feel my friend. I work for a grocery store company and some people do tend to throw fits about something we're sold out of. And what really irritates me is how everyone talks about the COVID none stop. I get it's a serious life-threatening disease, but talking about it 24/7 just gets the mind more and more worried and stressed about it. And part of the panic, if you ask me, is some of the media running their mouths about something they don't fully understand. When I get home, I'm so mentally and physically tired to where I can't focus on my assignments or my stories. So trust me, I do know how you feel.
5241177
Yes! The non-stop talking about only the virus! Some of my family have been like that. One was hounding me to watch a 10pm update on the pandemic, and I said "Nope. Nothing I can do anyway." They accused me of not taking it seriously.
So I responded: "There is nothing I can do about it. That is not failing to take this seriously. People will die whether I know about it or not. People will get sick whether I know it or not. Presidents will do ridiculous, idiotic garbage and may or kay not be removed regardless of whether I know about it. My struggle with my day to day right now is hard enough without worrying about the outside world which I can still do nothing to help them. All I can do is stay inside, do my work to the best of my ability while still making certain I do not risk my health or my family. The world, the news, and the virus will keep happening just as they are without me worrying about them. I love you. Good night."
5241200
Yeah. I definitely know how you feel. I have a brother who works as a nurse and it worries me with what he has to do, but at the same time, I feel proud for him since he's doing what he can to help people.
5241212
Yes. Those in medical are suffering bad from what they're seeing. And I have several friends who are extremely vulnerable. But, like you said, we need to also talk abut other things and revel in the things we can do with each other.
5241259
Exactly.
God, i know what you mean. I work in a gas station and people in this little town stayed inside for like two days, then freaking had cabin fever and said fuck it. I have people buying lotto tickets and caring on like this virus's influence means nothing to them, and i have to deal with that constant stream of stupidity on a daily basis. I wholeheartedly get you. We both need different jobs, I'll say.