. Right now, I am simply just reading or looking at blogs on here. I don't have the energy to write or create a story, but, what I could do is write poetry forHi · 9:49pm Mar 17th, 2020
Hey, everyone. I've been quiet now for awhile. I'm sorry for that. I have school to focus on and literally no time to write. The only freetime I have is like, right before bed. But, with the Coronavirus and all, it's more of a struggle than it already was. Honestly, I feel like everything is nearly impossible at this point. For two years I've had help from my teachers, which has been the one thing that helped me pass my classes and trimesters. This year is my last year, last trimester, and out of the blue the Coronavirus shows up and puts a wrench in things. Now, I have to work 4 times as hard. I barely get by doing everything on my own. My mom has no idea how to help. My teachers can't help. My graduation depends on me alone, and it's really terrifying! If I graduate this year(and that's a big if), than I'd be super super lucky because I just don't get that kind of lucky. I'm sorry if I'm not making any sense. I am so stressed out, ugh! On top of graduation, I have to worry about my mom. She has type 2 diabetes and is in her 40's, so she's at risk with the pandemic. She is the one who wants to see me graduate the most. I'm mostly graduating for her because I want to give that satisfaction to her. If anything were to happen to her before my graduation, I don't know how I could live with that. Would I work harder? Or would I totally shut down and isolate myself from everyone and live out the rest of my days in a dark mindset? I don't know. And that's what scares me. I'm so tired of being pushed to my breaking point. I'm always feeling drained. Every night I go to bed, I fantasize about being with Princess Luna because that's the only amount of happiness I feel nowadays. Other than watching Netflix. I'm trying to get by, guys, I really am. I want to be that happy person, like Pinkie Pie, that brightens everyone's day or night. I'm hoping that after graduation, I can finally be free to be myself. My complete self. Anyway, I didn't want you guys to feel like I was avoiding you. I really care about you. I'm just trying to cope with this situation is all. I'll make shorter blog posts about random things. Maybe I could find peace and joy in that, I have no clue. It's worth a try.
With love, Lunar_Glow
It's good to hear from you again, but I'm so sorry you have to go through this. *hugs*
Hope everything works out. I don't know what your religion is, but I'll be praying for you.
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. Also, I'm not really religious, but I have some belief in God. I'm more of a skeptic. Like, I'm not denying the existence of God, but I'm skeptic of his existence. You know what I mean? *hugs* It's great to hear from you as well. I miss talking to my friends here.
Thanks
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I miss talking to you too.
But, I'm glad you're here for now.
I wish you the best of luck and best of health
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Thank you. I'm in a better mindset right now, so I'm hopeful that tomorrow I'll get stuff done in time and submitted before the deadline. Tomorrow likely determines whether I pass or not. Thank you for the luck, I appreciate it
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the least I can do. I know how pressing the deadlines can be