Where have I been ?

So, no, I'm not dead, or hurt, or crazy... (and that's the problem I guess.)

Ever since my mental collapse a couple years ago, I've had to take a certain medication to keep myself 'sane'. And it does it's job just fine. I'm more carefree, less stressed and worried about things, it does it's job fine.

BUT...

It has had two noticeable side effects which I have come to hate. Firstly, I'm stuck 'living in the moment' all the time. Reading, which used to be one of my greatest joys, almost never happens now. Secondly, it's incredibly difficult for me to write now. In both cases, it's because these pills mess with my imagination. I used to be able to construct whole worlds in my head, now it's incredibly hard to slow down enough to even write this paragraph.

And I HATE it.

I love to read and write. It gives me joy, and makes me happy when other people like my stories.

If I didn't have to keep a job, and function in society, I'd just go back to being 'crazy' like I was meant to be.

But I still haven't given up trying. I'm still chipping away at 'Daughter's of the Sea', and will post the next chapter as soon as I can. And the Rot sequel will be out on Halloween. I can't promise how good anything will be with 'sane' me writing, but I'll offer up the best that I can.

Sincerly,
D.H.

Comments

[ShadowLDrago]

Happy Halloween in advance anyway, man. Hope things go well for you.

[lunlight]

This is late but...I'm sorry. For your forced "sanity" I mean.

[potatomanewe]

Look, you don't know cones and you don't know me, but I must say that it sucks, I don't know how it will be or it was (in case you are 3 meters underground)
but if you read this go ahead I don't know that it is a mental breakdown but what if it is like enduring things instead of thinking about a world insane or sanely do it your own way when you read instead of "reading" obseva visualizes the words as images and images as words

sincerely a potato

[Super Trampoline]

Hugs. How long do the medications take to leave your body or into your body? Maybe you can like save up for a vacation and stop taking them for a bit.