It's over isn't it? · 3:18am Oct 17th, 2019
Hello whoever is out there in this abyss of newbies and perhaps some dusty old folks from the days when I was watching FIM as it appeared for the first time lounged in my father's recliner because I thought it would be a show my little sister would be into (anything was better than Elmo's World, to be honest). I had no idea that decision would change my life the way it has from the people I've met, friendships made, stories created, and how much this process has increased my love for writing. I can't believe the series is over, I don't know what to say honestly, it just.... felt like it would last forever, you know? Haha, how much did that last episode ruin so many headcanons, huh? (I'm laughing because it hurts and the many unused drafts I have around half are incorrect to cannon now). Yes, I wanted to get back to writing stories but life is, well, life.
It's strange, I feel as though I've grown with the show as well. I work 50 hours a week and I'm a full-time student trying to find her path in life. I moved out, I got a fish, I shopped for sheets for the first time earlier this year, I went to a movie by myself for the first time last year, I went on vacation for the first time alone to the beach with my sister, I voted and will again in 2020, I'm thinking about mortgages and health insurance now, what is affordable for a wedding, it's crazy! I'm also in a committed relationship trying to balance that with visiting my family at least 1-2 times a week as I support my sister with her marching band performances (home-games mostly). 
I'll admit, it's been rough. I have not been able to express myself through stories or simply share them with you all for many years due to this. I don't know if I'll ever be able to, I want to it's a long process for me to write. I'm an emotional writer, I have to be inspired and keep that inspiration until I complete the story (this explains all my one-shots). This experience in the fandom and on this platform has been an amazing part of my life and continues to have a place in my heart today. I even listen to MLP songs at my office, with headphones in, of course, can't have them thinking their boss is a softy.
This journey is far from over, even if the show is, but it's a future I can't see. It's exciting but also terrifying, honestly.
Thanks for reading, you're 120% cooler because you did.
