Improvements in guitar playing and finding my sound

It took some doing, but I think I've finally arrived at a conclusion in regards of my guitar rig - I've found the sound I've been searching for. (Well, kinda...)

My right ear was ringing last night when I was playing it out on a song I've been toying with to get the tone right, and, while I did get it somewhat right (mostly as a draft), it still needs a tweak here and there. Until it gets where I want it to be, I'm not going to be one-hundred percent satisfied with the outcome. But - yes, there is a but - after acquiring an acoustic guitar to replace my temporarily inactive one, I've been playing with a few other songs that I've written in the past.

There's only one thing that terrifies me, and I'm dead serious: if one of you have ever been in a situation that involves you entering a stage in front of hundreds of people for a live performance, you might understand the nerves involved. What I mean is, well, I tend to act a bit like a scared rabbit, much like Fluttershy in Rainbow Rocks when the spotlight hits here, but when it comes to music, and considering if you're the singer AND guitar player, your nerves are going to cause your voice to crack and you will inevitably shag up a chord sooner or later. Not being funny, but if the frontman goes down, that's basically your lot. It's easy to do, and it is enough of a nuisance to warrant a few swear words to be thrown around - but you better hope to not do that on stage! (If you do, I'll throw you a cookie as payment for making my day!)

But yes, although it might be some time before I put my music out there, I'm internally cringing and worried for when the time might come. That's what all the practice is for, getting it right and rehearsing constantly with your band, but even little things can and do happen which can ruin a performance. It's an occurrence in my dreams, too, where a band I was in didn't rehearse for a festival and I remember turning the amps on before playing Nirvana's Breed, but my voice cracked and I sounded like a chipmunk that got kicked in the nuts. (No pun intended.)

There's hardly anything more degrading / humiliating than that when you're on-stage and the crowd has high expectations. Still, even if it might not happen one day, and bearing in mind I'm still a 'bedroom guitarist', I have pretty high ambitions and dreams of one day getting my music out there to have my say, just because I want to prove that I can do it and because music is one of only two things (the other being literature) that really speaks to me and gives me the motivation to breathe. If I can inspire at least one or two people with the stories I write told through the medium of music, then that'll be all I need to be satisfied.

Anywho, I'm not one for a rant or anything like that, but I wanted to speak my mind and make it known what my next step in life is going to be.

Dude, I just want to play...

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- FireRain 💛