The Prayer

I wake up sometimes in the middle of the night
Can’t hardly catch my breath and my chest feels tight
I ask God every day why this is happening
And I hope with all my might that this is all a dream

I live in delusions every day of my life
But It’s better than admitting to myself that things are not alright
I put a smile on my face to try and hide the pain
But every now and then the tears come down my face like rain

I tell you things will be alright again
But most days I really think the pain will never end
But you don’t need to know that, you deserve to hope
That there’s more to life when you think you’re at the end of your rope

I do the best I can to protect you from everything
But I can’t do it all the time and the realization stings
I have my petty problems, that you don’t need to hear
Because you’re trying to deal with a much greater fear

So when the days are hard and things are on the downswing
I hold my head up for your sake and to you I sing

Soon it’ll get better
Soon it will all be better
It has to be okay, I don’t know what I’ll do
If things don’t get better someday for you

I put myself aside for you and try to be selfless
But most days I’m still really horrible and selfish
I can’t see any way out of the mirror
Or listen to things that I don’t want to hear

You’re the only thing that makes it seem okay
The best of me that makes me see I have to find a way
But my heart is breaking because it hurts to see
You struggling so much, it’s really killing me

You taught me how to put somebody else first
Made me better even when I was at my worst
And even if things don’t get better for me
For you at least it all has to be

Soon it’ll get better
Soon it will all be better
It has to be okay, I don’t know what I’ll do
If things don’t get better someday for you

I don’t want everything to be about me
But I don’t know how I can still believe
That it will get better for me
I don’t know what else to do
Except pray things will get better for you

This pain cannot be normal, I know it never was
But I have to keep smiling and saying this to you because
I just have to

Soon it’ll get better
Soon it will all be better
It has to be okay, I don’t know what I’ll do
If things don’t get better someday for you

Comments

[Bronycommander]

A well Made Song and prayer. Hope dies Last and we are all here for you