O no · 10:56pm Aug 31st, 2019
I've realised that my last blog was literally just "wow I'm broke and sick."
So, update: I am still broke and sick. I sleep a lot, throw up a lot, cry a lot... but don't work a lot due to those things, so I don't exactly make a lot of money. So yeah, broke. Bad times. People dying. I am (probably not) dying. Having to be reminded of people who make my stomach churn (sometimes I wonder if they realise at all). People reminding me that I make other people's stomach churn. Got diagnosed with more mental health issues. Etc etc.
Was going to get my tongue pierced today but my mother bitched at me about that so I'm back to lying in bed exhausted and nauseous. Probably for the best. Already have enough trouble eating as it is. Doctor's appointment in November. Yay. Love life.
2019 has been awful, save for the single month I was living with someone else. The rest of it will probably continue to be awful. I'm not pessimistic, just realistic. I'm going to be sick until late November, and that's assuming a doctor can make me better immediately. Unlikely. Maybe I'll get lucky and figure out what's wrong on my own.
Yeah, so I dunno. Life has been pretty not great. Not terrible, but not exactly what one would hope for, y'know?
Literally only writing this blog because I'm exhausted and stuck in bed while people are having fun because I made a not intelligent decision to eat. Eating makes me sick. I know this. I am dumb. Might wander outside and find coffee and a tattoo parlour to spite my mother.
Definitely hope you feel a little better soon, you can talk to me if you ever need to.
You can talk to me too if you need to vent your life problems to someone. Always willing to help a friend in need.
Sounds like a shit year to me. If you ever need anything let me know.
Sorry Panda; I hope very much that it improves.