To all of my readers · 3:45am May 4th, 2019

Thank you for waiting so patiently after over 2 years of absence. Things really have changed in the course of that time. I apologize for the excessively long wait, and the only thing I can provide, even now, is a heartfelt apology.

My interests have hardly changed, especially my ambitions. I write stories and narratives as part of my career, but have wrote on this site as a pastime. This experience to write stories to so many people who're interested let me learn about what it means to be a writer, and the difficulties that come with it.

I know the pain everyone had to endure as well as the difficult realization everybody has to come across, as some writers on this site retire. This especially goes to my own favorites as well.

I'll be honest. I haven't been working on the stories in this time. I have been working in college, learning all that I can and using my time for other things like my own story. As unfortunate as it is, I didn't plan to take this long to finish my stories nor did I plan for these stories to take up so much time.

It was irresponsible of me to not only write an unfinished tale but to have everyone cling onto the story without word back. To tell you the truth, there's a bit more to it, and if you've read this far, than I guess you would like to hear the whole story.

In 2017, Net Neutrality among many other political and law-based events were going on. I did what I can to ensure the rights of the people. However, I received a lot of backlash from this action. People began claiming that I had used this as an excuse to not finish my stories. I was still recovering from the other flop I did a while back, but this one accused me of not working on my stories at all. It was hurtful, I'll admit, but it made me think.

Shortly after the repeal of Net Neutrality, things seemed normal. Except I was indeed unable to access the internet due to issues of the household regarding it. I don't remember or was sure what had happened, but it was only a few weeks. Within that time, I wondered about those comments stating that I had used this event as an excuse. I then wondered why I even wrote these stories.

They were fun, joyful, and sometimes pretty exciting. I felt passionate about what I wrote, and was indeed overwhelmed not only by how many stories I had released, but by the expectations from them. However, for every chapter I wrote, I truly did lose valuable time with friends and family. My High school graduation ended up with saying goodbye to so many friends I didn't even know I cared for so much, merely because I spent time at home writing. I had not balanced my school life and my home life very well. That was my fault, not anyone else's

The reality is I thought I was writing for myself. But I wrote for self-validation. I looked for people to make me feel happy about something I can do. I only gained confidence when someone was backing up my resolve. I don't know how many followers I had back then. I recall it was a lot. when I came back, I still see over a hundred followers still waiting or still believing.

By the time the internet was available again, I was deep in my studies for the university I'm still attending. I've learned even more writing techniques, characterization, and made friends to help explore those ideas further. Yet, despite all of that growth, the road to that dream I want is still there.

In the end, I do want to write stories, but I don't want to do it on a whim of following the trend of MLP. The stories I wrote were trying to do something each time, and it's time I told you for some of them.

The One Piece cross over was due to something selfish. I was just starting to be a fan of the anime at the time. When I looked for crossovers and read a few, I was very disappointed. I don't mean to insult or sneer at any of the people who ship characters, hell, my stories are about that stuff especially in some. The problem is, these stories, fanfics, were really just fantasies that chose not to grasp the subtle importance of certain characters. Luffy's personality leads to more than just idiocy, and while it takes time and lots of writing to get there, it's well worth the effort. I didn't like the stories that kept shipping Nami and Luffy, nor did I like Chopper and Fluttershy when most of the time it was done off the whim. But it's not like they're bad stories, especially considering how hard they worked on it and how many people like it. The problem was the variety was severely lacking unlike other stories for some reason having more crossovers. Halo or other FPS titles over an anime based on the resolve of friendship? Color me shocked, but that's actually why I wrote it. I wanted people to try going into some dangerous territory here.

School Transferred, which I'm still kinda surprised MLP did the school thing after all. When I saw Startlight Glimmer, I thought that was as far as they'd go. The story was actually based on passing down knowledge between cultures and growing the importance of friendship and whatnot with some humor over the situation. I thought it'd be more comedy, but every chapter I wrote felt like they had to have some drama. I don't know why, but I guess I was interested in seeing school drama of all things.

Celestia's Caretaker and the Caretaker series is... actually very straightforward. At the time of writing, there were BARELY any stories of her without her being boring or showing off the playful personality. I liked her as a character since she was relaxing, but the community didn't really come up with any stories focusing on her. So I thought I'd give it a shot. Many people still seem to like it. I wasn't planning on doing a sequel until when I had announced that the story was ending, everyone wanted it to be longer or at least have a happy ending. And that was AFTER I already wrote the ending I thought would be good. It's one of my proudest works here.

Night Shine and Colorless were stories I thought about for being a cute story of getting to know the younger characters with someone to keep things in balance. It didn't have much thought to it, because it was a story on a whim. An irresponsible whim at that.

Those are the stories I can recall what made them what they are. If I were to do anything different, I honestly would either continue with Caretaker or start from scratch on Colorless with the potential. But that's if I were to continue this path.
I enjoy reading MLP stories, but writing them is a lot of work. Work that can be used for my own original narratives and my ambition.
I don't think I will continue writing a majority of these stories if not any, and for that I humbly apologize.

However, if I do decide to return and write again, I want to be clear on this.

I won't continue with stories that I feel too far gone. This includes Inhuman, Heart Plus, School Transferred, and many others. The reason why is probably because years of studying story writing has lead me to realize the stories truly could have been more carefully written and put into consideration. I'm not proud of these works as I once were because I don't believe my characterization skills were on par at the time.

Luffy in Equestria however is something I don't play on continuing, not because it's bad (In my opinion), but because the world of Equestria and the world of One Piece has gotten so huge, researching and studying them is a big pain in the butt. And this story was written BEFORE MLP finally telling us more about the griffons. I'd have to read about paragraphs of griffon history for a story I'm writing for fun.

I sure love comments that tell me Haki is actually called willpower or something.

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