For those of you who still care, I think I owe you an explanation. · 11:16pm Apr 16th, 2019
I don't think most of you are going to want to hear this. I'm going to lead with the TL;DR though.
I don't really want to continue writing, at least not on this site. Integration is, at present, on an indefinite hiatus.
The long version:
I still have creative desires and passions, and I still want to write at least at some level, but over the past couple of years, my passion for the source material that my stories here were based on has waned down to the point of near non-existence. As such, it makes it hard to feel the drive to continue a derivative fan-work. As much as I wish it weren't so, and I really do wish it weren't so, the passion I used to feel for Echo and her story is effectively nil at this point. Another contributing factor, if I'm honest, to my lack of interest comes from the lack of response to Integration. I think that the negative responses as well as the general lack of interest comes from the fact that the story itself suffered as a result of my own disinterest. I'm sure this will come as little to no surprise to most of you, considering that my presence here has been effectively nothing for some time now.
The fact is that my life has become far more complicated than it was when I was 19 and pounded out Adaptation in the span of just about a week. I have more serious concerns that weigh heavily on me. I've moved in with some very dear friends, who I care about and with whom I spend a great deal of my time -- do not mistake that as a complaint, mind you. I love them all dearly and there is nothing I would rather do than spend my time with them. I'm struggling to try and make a decent living, and that kind of grind makes it hard to muster up a desire to waste time writing fanfiction. It's been a crazy ride for me: since I started writing here, I have lost my mother to cancer; I have lost friends and family to silly but nonetheless consequential drama; I have battled against suicidal depression, and against all odds held it at bay; I have grown in some ways as a person, and the inverse, as in some ways I have had an absolutely infuriating lack of growth. My life has been complicated, yet ultimately fulfilling I think. It's the struggles that shape us, after all.
It's been more than half of a decade since I first published Adaptation, and the response was truly mind-boggling to me. For those of you who are still around even after all this time, thank you. I really do mean that. Thank you. I can't help but feel that I don't deserve that kind of attention or praise, especially as I now step back from writing on FiMFiction altogether. I think I've let you all down. Who knows, maybe I'll find a passion again and return to really finish off the story once and for all... but I can't promise that or even pretend that it's likely.
All I can say is I'm sorry.
As an aside... If, by chance, any of you should want to express your disdain for me in person, I will be attending EFNW this year. So, you know, if you're gonna be there and you want to hang out or tell me I'm terrible or ... whatever, really ... then shoot me a DM and I'll do my best to be in contact. Just please don't kill me or anything. I actually kind of like being alive now.
I highly doubt the readers would say terrible things to you in person. Fanfic writers come and go is part if the norm. I don't see anything wrong about you loosing the passion to write. I do enjoy your fanfic and understand that it is not continuing.
Five years half of a decade
I will just say
Thank you
Thank you for creating
Thank you for caring enough to tell us
Good luck with your life
take care of yourself and those who you feel important
Above everything else please Remember
"Friendship is magic"
There is no shame in admitting that you enjoy other things. We are sad to see you go but see you off with a smile.
And I for one did enjoy Integration.
it is sad to see some one levee but at the same time i have grate respect to you for telling us all about it.
i wish you the best of luck.
and at the same time i will miss not seeing a ending to integration.
Its sad to see you leave us.. though I'm one of those who didn't care much for your rewrite of "Integration". My love an heart was stuck on the canceled version and for me that was where the series died. its and the others sit in my most cherished folders on here so do not mistake for hate. I wish you luck on your future endeavors
I don’t really know you, but I too will be at EFNW.
It is with a heavy heart that I must write good bye to you. I have been a long fan and enjoyed all your stories. Will I miss the updates, yes I will, but at least I was able to enjoy them. Even up to the end of your writing here I was blessed to see your world of creativity. Even though the story may be finished I’ll continue to keep it in my folder to enjoy. Cherish life and may you find everything you wish and hope for. Till next time.
I'm gonna stalk you with a celery stick.
Eat healthy pls, It's ok if you don't want to write pony anymore, people just wish that you would finish up your stories. It is very sad to see aythors just throw all that time and effort they put in their stories and characters away.
pity, it was a good story, but at least we still have the first one. No worries, its pretty obvious you have very valid reasons to stop, happened to me writing plots for a campaign RPG, when the stream runs dry its over, at elast for a time
So, what will you be writing?
5045777
I don't know. I've been playing around with various high fantasy tropes lately in my own personal time, although I've published precisely none of it.
I've also been wanting to get back to writing original works rather than derivatives like fanfiction, although I still appreciate fanfiction. I mean, making a good fanfic that appropriately characterizes the property's canon characters presents its own unique challenges...
I have, however, created an entire fantasy world in which I have created several stories, which have mostly been played out in tabletop RPGs lately. More than a year of work so far, but much more to do if I want to be serious about it.
5045791
Well, good luck.
5045429
Well, don't be afraid to hit me up when the time comes.
Hey no worries. It's not abnormal to change as you grow, don't stress about it!
I hope you're doing better. I'm sorry life got hard on you, and hope it get's better again soon.
I can't say I like that, but I can certainly understand it. Could you at least post a resume of how the story would continue/end? Not a chapter per se, but an outline so we can at least know how it'd go. For the story not to die without ever having an end, that is.
Either way it goes, good luck on life and your endeavours.
You don’t have to feel bad for leaving. You gave an explanation and reason why you are doing what you are doing. You have no idea how many writers leave without a word and are suddenly just gone. (I know that i am late with this but i only resonantly got an account.)