Nobody will never understand me

I always like to think people are different. Every single one of us. We are all unique. But... Are we really? I mean, I definitely am a unique one, but I feel like everybody around me are all the same. They follow the exact same mind pattern and have almost identical life choices. And I share none of them.

Why can't people accept my choices? Why should I change and try to fit the same crowded mold they are in? I should give up everything I love just because they don't have it. I shouldn't have anything nice. It's not like I'm doing anything bad, but that's the message I'm getting.

They think they know me and what I do and what I think, but they don't know squat. Assumptions and stereotypical thinking. That's all people can do. I don't question other people choices. It's their life and their money. They can do whatever they want for all I care. So let me do the same. Live and let live.

We all have different values and ideologies and we need to respect each other. I haven't got a lot of respect lately... All I hear is how horrible person I am... Everything I do is always wrong and immoral...

But I'm actually a very decent person. I have empathy, I am kind and caring, and I love life. No matter how shitty it sometimes is. I don't drink or smoke, I don't fight or do drugs... I have a good sense of humor and I have a sensitive side. I always think about others and what they want rather what I want and I try to compromise.

Yes, I can be a bit of a snob sometimes and I have a sharp tongue and short temper. But none of us are without our flaws. I'm not a Gary Stu. I'm really shy and quiet, but that doesn't mean I don't want to chat. I can be hard headed too. Sometimes I can be downright nasty if I'm treated like a bag of some toxic waste.

I have no idea what I'm trying to say anymore. This is turning out to be a really long blog but idc.

I am not a bad person. I make my own choices and I stand behind them. I have grown up like this and this is who I am. Don't like it? Well boo hoo hoo... But something must be wrong when everyone thinks like that. That's why I said everybody around me are all the same. I am open minded and I can listen to constructive criticism, but I ain't hearing any dissing, that's for sure.

I think I'm starting to repeat myself... But I ain't a bad person!