Fighting to Take Back My Mind

I've found I'm less creative when I watch videos in the morning. I've woken up with a wonderful idea, but with each successive video I watch I can feel the ideas draining away, and the motivation being sapped.

Until, at the end, the only thing I feel motivated to do is watch more videos.

This is the mountain that I must climb every day. And even at the end, when I can convince myself to put down my phone and pick up my pen, I find my mind scoured clean of any imaginative thought and filled with a ravenous need for any form of entertainment. Like a panicked addict I reach for the very thing I despise and hate myself every moment for my weakness.

I don't need anyone to care or take notice of a struggle that is nearly invisible to the eye. This is *my* crusade, *my* struggle against the screens that shackle my mind and body. I have been and will continue to fight for my own salvation.

I post this because I believe that there are others out there who suffer from the same plight. To them I say 'Fight On'. There is hope in the slow, plodding, brutal struggle of self improvement.

The reason we fall is so that we may learn to stand once again.