End of the Year · 11:17am Dec 31st, 2018
So, on this, the final day of the year, I take a look back as is my custom, and decide if the year was a Win or a Loss.
Some years have been epic wins. Some have been equally epic losses, and a few have straddled the line between good and bad.
2018 has not been one of those years. It firmly lands in the column of Loss.
My marriage of 10 years and relationship of 18 came to a sudden, final halt. It had been sliding in this direction ever since the events of my second appearance on Canada's Worst Driver, and things finally came to a head.
But the good and the bad of that pretty much balanced things out. Yes, I did lose a great deal in that, but I also gained so very, very much.
Not the least of which was a renewed relationship with my siblings and the tangible expressions of an army of friends, both near and far, who had my back and pulled me back up to my feet in my hour of need. You people quite literally saved me at a point where it would have been so very, very easy to just lay down and die. It is a debt I can never repay, except by living and being the best I can be.
No, 2018 goes into the loss column for the loss of the golden friend and crush of my youth. To me, she was light and life, and all things good and glorious. I had the privilege to know her for many years and I can only hope that her troubled soul knows peace at last.
As well, I've come to learn that my brother has terminal cancer. It's a long, slow killer for which there is no cure. If there is anyone I have ever looked up to, tried to emulate and keenly felt shame when I disappointed, it was them. He is the eldest of the five of us, and he's always had that quiet strength.
"Death closes all: but something ere the end, Some work of noble note, may yet be done, Not unbecoming men that strove with Gods..."
Goodbye 2018, don't let the door hit your ass on the way out.
Here in Australia, with just an hour and a half left of 2018, all I can do is offer a hand in friendship and promise that you can't get rid of us, your friends. If this silly, wonderful show has taught me anything, it's that friendship is the most important power in the universe.
Be awesome.
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Friendship IS Magic.
4988442 Very much.
Hope 2019 is a better year for you, sounds like it can only go up from here at least.
If you remeber, to lift your left leg as 2019 comes around tonight you should be starting the year out alright since you'll be starting it on the right foot.
Sorry to hear that you had a bad year too. Here's to doing what we can to make 2019 a better one.
Didn’t know you were on Canada worst driver. Then again, I haven’t watched that show I. Years
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Ya. I was in season 2 and the Worst Ever season