Hydrocity · 12:55am Oct 23rd, 2018
I'm a little frustrated here. I expected to have a chapter to post today, but I ended up changing what said chapter was going to be about half way through, and I'm not done with the second draft yet. I feel like I'm close to done, but I've just hit that point where I have to stop. My job requires I be at work at 4 in the morning every day I'm on schedule, so being up as late as I am is never a good thing.
I'm still in writing mode at the moment actually, so if you see Applejack speak, just pretend it's my natural Texan accent coming out or something. Promise.
A lot about Super has changed since I started writing it. In the beginning, you might even call me left leaning if you were to put me on a political spectrum. Read anything I put out since April though, and you can see a very dramatic shift right. Graduating has forced me to finally learn something since I can no longer use college as an excuse to say I really don't know anything or care about the world around me. I'm two years older than my main character now, I've almost caught up to Goose, and I will in two months. I went from writing something that had the potential to be as deep as it could be shallow and I turned it into something that has ever deeper waters to explore. I never realized how far I could take literally any single aspect of a character and go through a few tens of pages to figure out what makes that one part of them them, ya know?
It's so easy to get lost that I did get lost in my own world and now I have to turn the rudder and make sure the ship gets back on course. I think that this chapter was the first chapter that I seriously threw away like, five pages worth of story because it didn't fit with what I wanted to do. I usually just keep going until I can't, but here I just kept going, stopped, backtracked and started over. It is a strange feeling.
It has been a long time coming, but I feel... stable for the first time in a long time. Things are fine. Things will only get better (I hope) from this point onward and I'm okay with where I stand for now. There will be a time in the future where I need to pack my bags and venture off to somewhere else in the world to make it on my own, but for now... it's okay. Sure, maybe there's a kaiju looming off in the distance creeping ever closer, but in this moment, I will enjoy what I have. Gratitude is only experienced if it's practiced, and you don't feel it before you practice it. So, call me grateful, because I'm okay today.
Anyways, that's all from me. New chapter out within the week and definitely by next Monday.
Until Next Time~
-KCZ
