My way of thinking (Things Change and MLP are not to blame)

I don't know if people are going to bother listen to this, but I'll give it a shot anyway...

People keep calling me crazy for having trouble sleeping because I'm upset with all these cartoons and failed shippings, well maybe it is crazy, but it's no reason to paint me black. It's not like it's a crime or anything to be super mad with all these cartoons that never go my why (Hence why I write about them)

But you may as well know THIS...

My way of thinking: Preferring the dark side, being spiteful, and all that stuff you saw and you THINK you know (Even though you don't)

The cartoons had nothing to do with it.

Things like having a job, contributing to society (in a way I don't like) sucking up and moving on; I hated those things long... LONG... before I saw those cartoons, or fanfiction, or even before I was even 10 years old. I threw many things out of my life out of anger, plain disgust, and acts of betrayal.

-Bullied all my life
-Bad loudmouthed abusive adults
-Poor examples
-Hypocrites
-Bad friendships

I already stopped caring long ago. So even if Things Change MLP and all the rest didn't happen, I wouldn't be any different. I still want all those things I threw out of my life to STAY OUT! Don't come back for ANYTHING, not even to save someone's life, or even mine!

when those cartoons started up, all they did was add fuel to my already pent up rage, and made me further realize what I can truly just as worthwhile and worthless!

And don't you suggest I focus on "things that make you happy, and what you like" over the years, even THOSE have lost their power. They don't exactly thrill me the way they used to and even add to the rage.

Think of it like AMENDING FENCES, Twilight tries to convince Moondancer to give friendship a chance again (Despite she did in the end) JUST LIKE Moondancer earlier in the ep, Twilight's demonstrations of friendship, just like your demonstrations of what YOU believe is right in the world only FURTHER aggravates me, and this time... no matter how hard Twilight tries, my ultimate answer is "No"

-I will NOT let people TELL ME what is right and wrong
-I will not let them go "I told you so"
-I will not become things I mock and hate and am trying to show YOU DON'T NEED to be to live.

It's my way of thinking, and it's my way of being. You don't like it, fine... but get the hell off my back about it. You're not going to make things better by bullying me.