It has been sometime · 4:56am Jun 24th, 2018
Howdy there. Derpyforever here. Wow... it has been some time since I have done anything here. Over a year it seems. I honestly do not know if this message is going to get out to anyone. If anyone is still interested or still here to be interested. Either way, I have some words I need to write down and post to clear my conscious, so I am sorry for popping up into anyone's feed in a disrupting manner.
So, I have an issue with commitment. I learned this the hard way. I bombed the past semester of college and fell into somewhat of a depression. It was my fault for slacking off and losing focus on what is important. I pitied myself. I felt I was not worth anything. I slumped down into just playing video games all day-League Of Legends in particular-and I felt horrible. Part of me still does. I neglected my hobbies and suffered a massive skill downgrade because of it. I do not feel joy in making music, art, or writing. I say do because I believe I still feel this way. My inspiration is extremely low and any focus I have can not live for more than a few minutes, not before I get tempted by procrastination again.
That is my general message, one that will be popping over into my other accounts such as Wattpad and etc. This part is specifically for the My Little Pony community. I have not watched the series since the premier of Season 6. If I am to be honest, I have no idea what Season is the current one. (There is like a Friendship Academy now? Dear god, I am so far behind...)
I love ponies. I truly do. I want to return. I want to make a promise I can keep for once. I want to make art again. I want to make music again. I want to have the wonder of exploring fandoms and creating horrible, HORRIBLE works again. I mean, I re-read my first work Twilight's Love Story: Part One, and it was god awful, but it brought back so many memories.
I am not sure were I am going with this, at this point, I am just typing and do not have much regard for what I am typing, or if it even has proper grammar. However, I am starting to feel better from doing so. I apologize for wasting anyone's time, but I thank you for lending me it. I do not care for a response, but I just hope this has been a safe place for me to get this out of my head. What is next? I do not know. I am transferring colleges in hopes of getting into the University of my dream. Maybe this will drive me into a fresh start. Maybe I will find love for the arts again. Maybe I won't stay up to 4 o'clock in the fucking morning playing League of Legends. Either way, I shall end this rant here before I think of anything else. Thank you for your time, and remember to stay derpy forever, peace out.
Glad to see the person who brought me to FIMFiction is still alive!
Peace out to you as well. I will continue to derpily await your return. Best of luck in your endeavour, and if you need anything, ask, and I will try my best to assist in a timely manner.