A little about myself · 8:36pm Feb 1st, 2018
Hey there, Living Dimension here or J the first Letter of my real name...
I wish to share a little about myself with you.
First of all I am 30 years old and a massagist (or is that massage therapist in english?) that is also learning to be a physiotherapist and going to school for this goal.
In my free time I like to play computer and read Fanfiction and how our body works from books.
These facts do know a lot of my colleagues but what I am about to tell you almost nobody knows about me.
I love to read RGRE storys because it switches the woman (mare) in my shoes and gives the chance to right all the wrongs that happened to me.
Because I was bullied severely from 5th to 10th class in Realschule (from when I was about 13 years old to 18 years old) as a result I never had friends and no social connections anywhere and developed nothing in this regard. Being a shut-in with only my adventure books and computer games I fled from the real world...
last year march the first shocker: My doctor diagnosed me with Diabetes
but I said NO! because it was only the beginning of the disease I started doing sports and completly removed sugar from my diet. I actually managed to beat the disease back completly and from being 187 cm tall (6,13517 Feet) with 130 Kg (286,601pound) weight I now weight only 95 Kg (209,439 pounds). But then after being denied my only way of coping (eating sweets) I progressed into a deep depression I was even in a psychatric daycare center because of it with thoughts/contemplation about suicide --> Wasnt only the sugar I simply was lonely zero social connections and not able to make the first move in socialising.
I finally came out of my Depression mid summer 2017 because of the optimistic series My little Pony Friendship is magic. I was already fan of the show but while rewatching old episodes I somehow got the message that it is not too late to make friends and find my very own happy end by simply trying to speak with others (was rather hard for me with no prior experiences)
YEAH!! MLP FiM saved my life
The next shocker was now in january 2018 I suddenly had problems with my vision and keeping my balance going down the stairs I kept seeing double images unable to fuse them correctly together I thought at first I must be looking like Derpy/Ditzy but I asked for an MRT (Magnet Resonance Tomography) right away. And my doctor agreed this would be for the best.
Sadly my diagnosis was ... MS (Multiple Sclerosis) meaning my brain is geting inflammation at certain points my immune system tries to repair those but makes scars at these points instead
slowly crippling me.
I dont know what to think or do I mean I had been contemplating suicide before but now my own body wants to slowly die? Auto-immune disease... What the ****
But my doctor spoke with me today (01.02.2018) and gave me a medicament that should bring MS to a stop or at least will slow it down and I am a fighter and I once made a swear on my grandfathers grave (yeah he had cancer but never gave up hope until he died) to not give in and simply quit.
Okay a small little part of me that still believes in the impossible still hopes to go to bed and wake up in Equestria a true HiE happy end :D I would even call myself Anonymous xD
The result of my psychology therapist speaking with me was this: My Blog post to all my fellow Bronies because I am not alone!
And I am not caged in my body with MS NOO! MS is caged in with me!
I love all of you my friends
Yours truly
J
A little update to this... (12.01.2020)
I am more happy and am progressing through my depression slowly but steady...
I can only thank my new girlfriend for this... because it was her that motivates me and brings me back to real life just by being there for me... we have only been together like this since 20.12.2019 but this invigorates me immensely.
She is already a physiotherapist like I wish to become in late september (she was in the same class like me just a year ahead :D everything is coming together like I hoped it would wishing for luck ;) my fellow bronys)
J
Massage therapist, is correct
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Oh okay,
thank you very much
Anything about the rest
Of what I wrote?
*Nervous laughter*
tbh, I'm not sure how to reaction to this entire thing you have here, I mean, yes it is sad that you have MS, but I'm just not getting enough of a reaction from all this. Also, good on you for not giving up, you are the perfect example of what humanity needs to be like.
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Thank you
I draw my strength from my fellow bronies like you