I'm still alive! · 3:10am Jan 11th, 2018
I've been in a bit of a funk lately. Depression at it's peak, and I'm trying to get my medications straightened out so I can feel human again. I wanted to ask all of you if you've ever been depressed. Not only that, but (if you don't mind) what caused said depression? Do you suffer from it constantly, or just off and on?
i get depression at least once a yr, just went through it again on the 7th, if my first nephu was still alive he'd be 9 now
I've had depression as a stead part of my life sense I was 8 or so (some of my family think it started even sooner) I'm 23 now, and don't know what's myself and what's the depression.
I would say it's caused by the self-hatred and how I'm absolutely worthless, but my therapist says it's my father's physical and mental abuse.
Good thing he disowned me a few years back, I guess.
it comes in waves I get depressed for a few months then after I feel happy and normal for the next few then it starts over again
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I know how you feel. My sisters would have been 9 last august as well.
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i miss him dearly but i know he's watching me, his mother and his 2 brothers
I almost killed myself three times in the first half of last year. At my rock bottom, only three things kept me from filling my bathtub with warm water and slitting my wrists Godfather-style, and they all involved obligations to other people: A promise to meet someone at a pony convention later that month, my connection with my advisor at college, and my boss at work.
My depression involved feeling trapped in a vicious cycle of compulsion to use the internet to satisfy my addictive cravings, which in turn involved letting my schoolwork fall by the wayside. They were likely an escape mechanism for me, trying to avoid the ever-approaching responsibilities of adulthood when I graduate in four months from now. I nearly flunked out Spring 2017.
I've been on 10mg of paroxetine for several months now, and I see a therapist regularly. Recently, I've had a surge of improvement that's coincided with keeping a regular job and cleaning my living area. I'm actually looking forward to the future now, and I haven't felt suicidal in months.
about your question of depression, I have had it since 5th grade roughly (I'm 20 now) and it mainly started because of bullying. I have highs and lows and in the lows i find myself.....nevermind about that but i also found that just music helps a bit, if you can drive going for a drive with the music going really helps.