My Life In A Blog · 1:04am Dec 5th, 2017
Hey guys! It is that time of year yet again. People are hanging stockings and putting up Christmas trees, but for me it is a time to reflect. If you would like to reflect as well, come join me. Hell you may even learn something about me. Join me after the cute image to learn more. 
So you may be asking, "Well, Kairi why do you reflect in December of all the months to choose from?" Well guess what? I was born in this month. Yep, I was born at 12:12 am on December 23 of 1997. That means this year I will be 20! 🎉 But, unlike most children born I kinda have a special story to mine.
I was born in a small hospital in Tennessee. I was born to Marcus Raab. (He didn't look like this when I was born. This is just the oldest photo I found)
And I was born to my lovely mom, Christy Raab. (This is what she looked like before she got with my dad)
In that same hospital was a famous country singer by the name of Carl Perkins. (I know that quite a few things in TN are named after him but other than that I don't know anymore.) He had cancer from what I knew and he wanted to get treated near his hometown. My grandma told me what happened on that day.
She was walking out of the hospital to go home and sleep, she had been up all day to meet me for the first time. As she was heading to the car, she saw a group of girls crowded around this one male celebrity. One of the girls saw that my grandmother wasn't paying him any attention. She asked my grandmother why she wasn't "fangirling". My grandmother said, "I have something way more precious up there in that hospital."
To her surprise, the male celebrity piped up, "And what might that be ma'am?"
"My first baby granddaughter was born in that hospital today."
She ended up leading him to the room where I was. He actually got to pick me up and hold me in his arms. There are pictures and everything to prove it.
That man was Billy Ray Cyrus. I know you might think I am crazy. I sadly don't have the picture with me but I have even shown my fiance and he can prove it.
I grew up in any way a normal girl would grow up, instead I didn't. My father was never really in my life, he only worked 3rd shifts so I never got to see him nor did he want to see me. I felt as though I needed to become the male figure, so I was a bit of a tomboy. When I was three they decided that they wanted to give me a sibling. Thus, my booper dooper snuggle wuggle bear of a sister was born. Kylee Raab.
Of course, her and I fought. A LOT.
Moving on from that, I honestly don't know where to start. Since my dad wasn't around a whole ton to take care of us, my mom, grandmother and great grandmother took care of us. (pictured from left to right is my grandma, great grandma and my sister)
My father and I did not get along and we still don't today. I actually have PTSD because of something he did to me. (I would rather not go into it but lets just say at the age of ten he almost killed me.) I actually repressed the memory just so I could live a normal life.
Lets get away from the bad stuff and move to more happy stuff. I enjoyed video games, drawing and watching tv like any other kid. It's really hard for me to make friends so I did not have very many friends growing up. Well, it's time to get back into the bad stuff because in February of 2014 my dad decided to divorce my mom of almost 16 years. While my mom and sister cried, I made a decision to not cry. I refused to cry in front of my sister because I wanted to be the shoulder to cry on. That kinda backfired in the long run cause now i pent up my feelings but whatever. Soon after that, my great grandmother passed, which gave us tremendous heart ache. I was falling behind in school, coming in and out of relationships, I was a mess.
Now this is where it gets better, promise. I started getting more into gaming, getting involved with more and more games and series. I started drawing more, understanding that I was getting better slowly overtime. I started playing strategy games like Catan and Magic the Gathering. I decided that when I graduated, I wanted to go to art school. Sadly, my dad has nothing to do (financial wise) with my schooling. We have somewhat regained a good father-daughter relationship. My mom is my biggest supporter. My sister is in her teens so she is edgy af.
The one thing that really helped change my life was Seventh Heaven. A ton of things had to happen in order for me to meet him. They go as follows:
He had to get into Halo->
ended up meeting this guy name Mijet->
became great friends and he introduced 7 to MLP->
He had to get into MLP fimfic writing->
had to meet this guy named KinkytheSlinky->
Kinky had to introduce him to a friend named Woody->
Woody had to introduce him to his friend Ian->
I had met Ian because he worked at the same store i played MTG with
Ian invited me to an xbox party one day and then just left me there to mingle with the people in it. Seven just happened to be in that party. We played Overwatch together and I slowly started to grow a crush on him(even though i was in a relationship. It was a shitty relationship, more on that later). We had grown to like eachother and the current boyfriend I had was cheating on me and didn't want to be with me anymore. One night I got drunk with a couple of my friends in my dorm. One of my roommates decided to flirt with Seven. I took offence and I asked if we could go into a private party. I asked, "Will you be my pretend boyfriend?"
To which he replied, "Why can't I be your real one?"
I realized then that I was in a one sided relationship and decided to dump my ex and get with Seven. The rest is kind of history. If it wasn't for him I would probably still be in that one sided relationship loathing the fact that I hated where I was at physically and emotionally.
Now to end it on a good note, this is the last photo of my family all together(that guy behind my grandma is my great uncle)
This is the only image I have left of my old family. Now that I am with Seven I will now have a new family. (THAT DOES NOT MEAN I AM GOING TO HAVE A BABY!!!)
Thank you if you read this. I know it's a lot but this is what I remember every December. How I got here and what I have become. You guys have a happy holidays.
~Kairipancakes
Awwww , I love you honey. You're the best thing that ever happened to me.