Updates and some other things. · 4:46am Nov 24th, 2017
Well, hello to any who read this I suppose. I'm glad you stopped by for me to spend some of your time hearing any of what I am about to say. It's been quite a while since I did one of this blog posts in the middle of the night because I couldn't sleep. So here we are yet again, our old stage we haven't seen in some time. I was running through what I was going to type while laying in bed staring into the darkness, but... I guess that mental memo literally left with the wind. I guess I'll start with updates a few days late. I know not many read Dreams of Silver, but after mulling it over a lot I decided to take it down and entirely rework it from the base concept. Don't worry though a lot of what I had planned I can still do, it's just the start didn't sit right with me so I needed to change it. Being only two chapters in and with little attention this is a very easy thing to do. I... I also wanted to commit. As in, I wanted to commit to fully writing some of my work before moving on to others. I write Two Spells, One Mistake with my close friend and co-author TankDrill, which I love doing. I will also be working on Legacy of Blood with my proofreader/close friend/co-author Scorpia. Bear in mind that Legacy of Blood might be a bit slower than Two Spells, One Mistake due to Scorpia's busy schedule but I will try my best. TankDrill and I, write on a very regular basis so you have no fear of me keeping up with that one. Personally, I shall work on Dance in the Midst of Midnight when by myself. Out of the two I have left published, DMM is much further and nearly halfway than compared to CLC.
I realise that when I started I took on a lot and got very carried away... A lot of published series fics to say the least. Slowly they have withdrawn and are waiting for me. I haven't given up on any that I put out, nor will I. Though something Scorpia said the other day gave me pause... I didn't realise it'd been two years and a half since I started here with everyone. I didn't realise how truly backed up and neglected my work had gotten. While depressing, he was more than right. That's why I want to focus on a select few and finish them before writing more. WIth TankDrill's help, I've kept on top of TS,OM with some iffy spells but mostly with ease. I hope with Scorpia to keep up with LoB at a regular pace. DMM is down to me, however, to not get caught up within myself and let it down again. CLC... My prized jewel which started all of this... When I figure it out, sort out my thoughts for it and settle some other stuff first, I promise it I'll be back to show her the love she deserves. To refine and write her as I intend to with as much passion as when we started all this.
I often get bogged down inside my mind by idle thoughts and stupid little things. I suppose my problem is that I let it. I allow my feelings and stupid sadness to depress me and weigh me down... TIll eventually I crack and end up crying on YouTube at night when I don't need to be. I know some who read that might think I'm sad and pathetic, but I'm sure some of you, hopefully not many, know what I mean and have been there or been there for someone who has. I hate myself for troubling others with my problems, I hate putting my emotional burden on any of my close friends. Because I feel in comparison to others in the world, my little internal emotional issues and depression are so much smaller than many other people and I'm not worth worrying about. However, in the last two and a half years since my memory can recall. Most times when I get like that I end up in the exact same place each time, talking to the exact same person. They don't say much, they don't do much... I say every time I hate bothering them with my stuff and each time they remind me that they don't care, it's what they are there for as a friend. I wish I could tell them how much they help me, how much more they do for me than they might realise. A lot of my writing is tied to my emotions, as much of art is too many people. Emotions play a massive part in how you write your piece. My writing is very true to that. I've had dry spells where my emotions get me down a lot... All my followers have seen this. But thanks to them... I feel I have a lot fewer breaks to be thankful for. I doubt I'd have as many ideas or as much progress without them to keep me afloat when I badly need it. I'd tell them thank you, but as a writer, I'd feel that pale in comparison to what I truly want to say. Yet also as a writer, I understand sometimes the simple approach is best to convey your feelings.
So, to wrap up an obscenely long and possibly my longest blog post to date. I'm extremely thankful to my proofreader for every little thing they do for me. I'm thankful as hell to my followers for the stories I adore telling. Lastly, I'm forever grateful to my close friends who give me a light to look at up there at the end of the tunnel. I apologise for this late night long ass blog post and I shall be heading to bed now. Thanks to any who read up to this point and I hope you have a good night, better than me anyway.
Till next time - Frozen Quill
P.S I'm likely to forget I wrote this when waking up in the morning, that should be fun. 
Lack of sleep and crazy things... Ooh, that should be a chapter title. 
Thank you for being a wonderful best friend as well Frozen Quill. As a writer, proof-reader and a fellow reader in Fimfiction, I see many authors with troubled lives just as yours. All I can do is just to cheer you and them on to do the right thing and continue to make amazing stories. I always stay positive...
...When everything in life doesn't punch me in the gut every once in a while. When I'm not busy I'm seriously trying to think of the next big story of my own. So in other words, here's to another great year of writing... That is if Net Neutrality is still here that is... It's late on my end and I need my sleep as well. Also, yes, that is a chapter title we can use. 