In which, sammie talks about how crushes and attraction are different · 2:57pm Sep 29th, 2017
Warning you now, this might get long, so if you honestly don’t care, please go on with your day.
For me, a crush is more like liking the idea of being with someone, and not the someone exactly. My crushes mostly turned into friendships, rather than relationships. Only two of my crushes ever developed into romantic attraction (and later a relationship).
Let’s talk about the *counts* four that became friendships.
My first crush was as a first time school attendee in kindergarten.
There was a boy who sat next to me. Let’s call him Travis.
Travis was the first boy I had ever had contact with outside my cousins and uncles. Of course I had a crush on him. This crush lasted through.... First grade before I was resigned to just call him friend (In second grade we were even computer buddies (meaning when the time came we shared the class computer) haaa)
My second crush was when I had recently moved to Tennessee. New school. New teachers. New neighbors. Scared floof.
Let’s call this boy John.
I met John the first day of fourth grade. He was the son of the p.e./art teacher. This crush lasted a while. It was dying, then he gave me a duct tape rose in fifth grade and it flared up again. Eventually though, I started seeing him more as a friend just as my third crush rolled around.
Picture this. Your favorite neighbors move and in their place arrives a teenage girl, a teenage guy, and a girl your younger sister’s age. This was also around the time you started homeschooling and started middle school. You have next to no social interaction and only your neighbors were company when they were home. The guy is kinda good looking, so you decide you want him to be yours.
That was me. Let’s call the guy Trevor.
I uh... I gave Trevor a love note.
Y’know the song “Check yes or no”? I wrote that on a piece of paper and gave it to him. He uh... Told my mom about it. Kinda killed my love for him. Sure, we stayed friends, but I will never forgive myself for being a fucking idiot.
My fourth crush is a year after this and living in Florida. No kids our age lived in this neighborhood. So we stuck to ourselves, and I dived into the world of the internet. I was eleven and was exploring the world of grooveshark under the alias “fluffysam,” when someone followed me. I was kinda shocked. I had done nothing to earn the follow. The guy just followed me. I followed him back and started hanging around his profile. His username was Midnight Rain at the time, but eventually it changed to Midnight Storm. We talked on the broadcasts he started. We even rp’d. I developed feelings, and I told a mutual friend who then shipped us. When I told him my feelings he kinda laughed about it... The mutual friend was kinda pissed, and I was near tears.
When I started this fimfiction account, I was twelve and a couple months off thirteen. I laid low for the most part, but I found Midnight again and we kinda talked? I mean, he’s not really active on here, but he is on here. I won’t link to him. I consider him a friend even if thinking about how he laughed at my crush on him makes me tear up a bit.
Anyway, that’s all I have to say about crushes that turned into friendships. I may or may not talk about crushes turning into a relationship, since one of those relationships is a touchy subject for a friend.
Anyway, to restate what I said in the beginning, not all crushes turn out to be romantic attraction.
Amen to this
be asexual instead
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Haa
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Nah. Demisexual is good enough for me
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Dear lordie
Wow
*reads it all*
...Thanks for sharing Fluffy. And for what it's worth, I don't think you were an idi*t to send that note, at least you made an effort.
My first crush was in kindergarten too. I never said anything (way too shy then) and I never really even spent time with her inside or outside of class.
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Muuuuuuuuuuuuuurp
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W-Wha-???
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Forgive this poor soul...
Srry, fluffy, I guess I'm kinda dense.
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nuuu ur not dense