The late night rant

I can't believe today was Monday already, I could have sworn it was still Sunday. Like so many times before, Monday hated me. Now, it wasn't that bad compared to the worst days, but it still left me pretty sad. It's almost 3.00 AM here right now, but I'm not tired, I don't even want to sleep. I just feel like shit.

Usually, when I'm sad I'm able to write something that doesn't utterly suck, but this time, I'm not feeling it. Probably because I'm really angry at myself. The story is kind of stuck and I have no idea what to do with it. Why? Because for some reason, I want to be such a *bleep* crowd-pleaser. I know it doesn't work that way, but it prevents me from writing. I can't release new chapters because they are not edited and I'm too... well, SHY to ask anybody's help. I want to comment on posts and stories and blogs, but I'm far too afraid of a negative response. There, I said it, I'm too afraid to communicate!

I don't know why it's so God damn important for me to know what people think about me so I keep my mouth shut. I mean, everybody wants to be accepted, but I'm afraid of the opposite. Why can't I just let go and be free of my demons?

I don't even have anybody to talk to anymore... <--- ajsad, not ajsleepy.

Comments

[Ask-Shadow]

Tbh, me in a nutshell

[Shimmering Thunder]

4678707
Aww. *hugs*

[Ask-Shadow]

4678717
if you want to talk to someone I can give you my skype or discord. I don’t really have anyone to talk to either so this could be a win-win for both of us.

[Shimmering Thunder]

4678722
Well, I meant an irl person, but I might be able to hang out in Discord, although I'm a bit newbie with it.

[Ask-Shadow]

4678728
I knew that

[Ask-Shadow]

4678728
Gosh, I’m stupid but anyway my username on discord is “positive_memer#8265”