Paranoid Android · 8:37pm Apr 3rd, 2017
I don't know what it is this week. I've had no motivation to do hardly anything, my sleep schedule is all kinds of out of wack, and I honestly think it's just school stressing me the fuck out. I'm behind in my modeling class, but really, that's the only one, so why is it I feel so terrible all the time? I've been on and off sick all week, but I suppose that could be due to me and spring not getting along very well. I have two modes it seems. I can live like a normal human being without getting sick at all really in the summer and winter. But come fall and spring, I'll be sick for almost an entire month. It could be that my diet is all kinds of jacked up (Which it has been lately), or maybe I've been doing worse because I just haven't worked out in a week, but that's only making me feel worse about myself.
It's just this vicious cycle of feeling depressed when I can't work up the drive to go do something productive. Out of all the things I've done this week, the comic I made is probably the only thing that's worth all that much. Of course, maybe three or four people got it without me showing them the song it was associated with it. Take a look at it here (Paranoid Alicorn), but don't do so without opening the link at the top of this post if you don't know the words to Radiohead's Paranoid Android. I really tried to catch the tone of the song in the way I drew everything and did the type setting, but apparently it's impossible to get without the song. Yeah, that's what I'm upset about I suppose. I'm disappointed that it was just written off so easily because nobody gave it more than a second's glance and then passed it by. It meant a lot to me, and to see it just get ignored like that is a little heart breaking you know? I thought the symbolism was clear, but I suppose that isn't the case. I guess I just need to get on with life and do something. I worked my body too hard last time I worked out, so maybe I just need to cut back and do that so I can feel better. If nothing else, physical activity should be good for me.
Well, I guess that's it then. Time to get up and do something. It's been long enough since I did anything other than watch movies, play games, and watch anime.
Ooh, but speaking of that, I went and saw Ghost in the Shell (2017) twice over the weekend, and let me tell you I was not even close to disappointed. If you get the chance to, go see it after you've watched either the original from 95 or the remaster from 08 (titled ghost in the shell 2.0). Either one is fine since it's the same movie, the only difference being the CG, which I honestly preferred the straight animation from the 95 version (even if the 90's green auto cad was a little... 'nineties' at times). Most of the original movie made it into the new one, and I was pretty happy with the accuracy in which the live action recreated it. They also took the Kuze plotline from GitS Second Gig, and I was pleased with how they integrated it all. She may not be the same major that I knew, but since they're all different with each incarnation, I didn't have a problem with it. Good movie, 10/10, would see again.
Well, here's hoping I can kick this little depression fit. I did some clean up and updated a lot of the chapters to reflect the more spaced out style of the current ones and finally fixed the gold bits thing from a while back. Have a better week than I did.
I, may be paranoid, but... I am, no Android.
Until Next Time~
-KCZ
Yay radiohead