Forced Happiness · 1:07am Mar 4th, 2017
I don't smile very much. It's just the way I am. I have whatever is the male equivalent of Resting Bitch Face. So, at the best of times, I look like I want to stab whoever I'm talking to.
I had a not great day today, so I actually am in a bad mood. If, at rest, I look pissed at the world, you can only imagine how I look when I am indeed not feeling the best.
A few minutes ago, I was eating pizza on the couch, trying to raise my spirits, when my aunt's boyfriend strolls past. He says something to the effect of "Smile, man, it's not the end of the world", to which I reply by blowing a loud, wet raspberry (because I guess I'm a fucking child).
I don't think I can overstate just how stupid of a thing that is to say. If I was willing and able to smile, don't you think I would be? The implication there is that I'm intentionally sitting in a shitty mood, my nefarious goal being to bring everyone else down as well. Why would I do that? If I could smile right then, I would. Why even say something like that? What use is that? He's not giving me advice or suggestions, he's simply telling me to stop feeling how I'm feeling.
And then I got to thinking about happiness in general. Why is happiness considered the norm? Why do sad people need to be cheered up? I'm sad, not sick, so why do people feel the need to "cure" me? And it's not like I'm breaking new ground here, talking about topics no one has thought to discuss. If I'm not mistaken, the entire point of the movie Inside Out was to say that sadness has its place. You don't have to be happy all the time. Feeling down in the dumps doesn't make you a freak, it makes you a normal, sane, healthy human. So why do so many people still say such asinine bullshit?
Sorry for the downer tone. I've not been feeling my best these last couple of days. Just wanted to get this off my chest.
We now return you to your regularly scheduled nothing.
Consider yourself lucky. When I smile, babies start crying and adults wet themselves...
It's like telling someone to calm down if they're angry; like fuck if i'm gonna do that! And, although I don't quite get RBF, if something has pissed me off the tiniest bit, I get Resting Thunder Face instead. And you can bet, if I come out of school like that, my mum will mention. Every. Single. Time. It's not even just if something has pissed me off, I could be thinking or concentrating, and boom, thunder and lightning. -_-
4443020 If I'm around a baby, it's pretty much a guarantee that It'll stare at me
I get it man
And I call it 'resting asshole face'