Please free my sins

Every time I watch, read, learn and feel.
And every time I wished to speak and share.
But the road doesn't want me to be there.
But I broke the first brony rule and that is to love and tolerate.
On Monday I lied to a friend, made a cruel joke to a friend and left him on a lunch time.
For the sins I have made to carry on my shoulders.
For years even before I came to England, I already have made my sins too hard to carry.
Because of me, my brother has been hurt and it is a brothers duty to protect family.
I was shunned, to be used and thrown away for those who I have called friend.
It is because of me is that I have makes sure that two of classmates were kicked out and both were in the different time zones.
The first I cannot remember nor the identity or the cause.
The other I thought was a good friend but the road does not lead me there, I began to drift apart and to break.
My fault is the memory and it is important, the problem is that I easily forget that does not hurt me physically or mentally.
The second fault is that I easily loose home on myself, if I do not have a friend or someone that is with me, I think so many terrible thought and they break me.

I have thought this because of this video.

I leave to your thoughts and remember your memories