Fifth time's the charm?

I have started Aria's story four times over the last few days and deleted the entire thing shortly into it because it's just preposterous.

She's harder to write for than I thought she would be and part of that is character. We really don't get a lot of character depth in Rainbow Rocks. She is the middle sibling, is bitter and surly, and that's about it. She has a moment that teases at some internal power struggles that dries up with no resolution of explanation. So that makes things tough on me, especially with the issues I want to explore with her and how she's dealing with her withdrawal.

Aria will singlehandedly launch Raison into Teen if not Mature rating, because she is going to be dealing with (Trigger and spoiler alert.)

cutting, depression, self-loathing, self-hate, masturbation, BDSM (true, not that Fifty Shades BS), sensory play, and dark imagery.

She's also a definitive bitter middle sister and a huge misanthropic bitch.

And somehow I feel it start crumbling before I get four hundred words in.

I'm going to try again tonight, and maybe get somewhere with it.

It was easy to do Adagio. She was the eldest sister, the leader, and pride was what I chose to be her hanging point. Now she has to provide some sort of safeguard for her sisters. She has to swallow her pride and get a job waitressing - which if you've never been waitstaff, and female waitstaff in particular, let me inform you: It sucks and depending on clientele, you consider wearing a bustle with spines on it so they stop groping your ass but you don't because management was unhappy when you broke that one guy's wrist and impaling their hands seems a bit more harsh.

It takes guts to willing do that to support your family, and kudos to those of you reading that serve in that capacity. I was there once and I alway tip.

Sonata was even easier. She's the youngest, and seemed to only go along with the whole thing because of hunger, habit, and "I want to roll with the gangster but I'm too white and nerdy" behavior that youngest siblings display. She wants to feel included by her sisters but it's obvious that she has simple loves and is much more happy-go-lucky than the other two. The infamous "Taco Tuesday" line and the fact that while Aria and Adagio taunted Sunset, the most that Sonata put it was "Too bad, so sad."

Seriously, can you name a better companion for Pinkie? Two kids with more than a modicum of intelligence that maintain their child-like sense of wonder and glee? All we need now is for them to find a Police call box and one say "Allons Y!" to be responded with "Geronimo!"

That's right, I just crossover shipped Pinkie and Sonata with 10 and 11. Deal with it and get going with the fan art.

Anyway.......

They were easy because I was able to flesh out the characters presented and go from there with personal experiences.

I have trouble putting myself in Aria's shoes because half of those topics I have no personal experience in them. So please, if I manage to get a chapter put up, treat it not as some attempt at being shocking. Read it for what it is: the inner despair and loss of faith of a girl that feels like she's lost everything.

I do plan on her gaining personal redemption in the fourth chapter, but the end of her personal chapter isn't going to show much change in disposition.