Settling Down · 3:06am Dec 16th, 2016
FimFiction... the site that I am addicted to for reasons I don't know why. The site the hosts almost all of my friends ever. A site that I met my ex on, met my current and forever loving stallion on, and a site I met my bestest of friends on. A site I've linked my videos and art to. A site with enemies and allies. A site with friends ready to cheer me on. A site full of memories both good and bad. A site that allowed me to write stories to express myself. A site that allowed me to vent through blogs. To vent sad things, angry things, worrying things, pressuring things... but also gave me the chance to blog on the happy, relieving, helpful, calm things. A site that gave me purpose for a little while. But now I am settling down. I feel less and less motivated here each day. I don't know what to do. FimFiction has given me everything I need now; great friends, a forever soulmate, and relief from my past. I've helped countless users and received help from just as many. Emotional help, technical help, lots of stuff... I've gained many friends and many enemies. I have written stories both good and bad. Now I think I have made my decision. I'm not who I used to be. I've been hurt on this site. I've also been picked up and helped on this site. I am a part of FimFiction and I can't leave, no matter how hard I try. But this isn't my home anymore. At the start of the new year, I will be less active. I am currently working on one story and I plan for it to be my last. I won't write anymore after that. At least not here. I won't post anymore of my videos. I won't post anymore of my art. I will only PM until I fade away. I won't leave those I care about, even if I do one day log off for good, I'll always find a way to keep in contact with those that matter most to me. Whether it be through YouTube, DeviantArt, Skype* (I don't prefer to have lots of contacts on Skype though), whatever... I'll find a way. I don't plan on leaving soon, though, if at all. In the start of next year (or heck, possibly even this month) be on the lookout for my last story. I'd appreciate it if it made its way to the feature box, but that's only a fantasy of mine. I love you guys.
Note that this blog is unedited. There might be autocorrected words that shouldn't be there. Also I'm not feeling up to spacing it into paragraphs. Sorry guys... I just let myself to my iPad keyboard and I had at it. Had to get this off my chest.
another friend gone i was lied to again nvm i'll miss you *hugs*
4341517 I don't know if I'm leaving yet. And even if I am, it's not anytime soon. *Hugs back*
4341518 but still it feels like i'm losing friends sooner or later i'll be the only one here
I completely understand. *hugs* At the moment FimFiction is the only account I have, but when I get more I hope to see you again then.
Nuuuu! Don't leave!!
*cling*
*Hugs tightly* I almost nearly lost it when Crimsy left, I don't wanna lose you, too
Aww I hope that you will stay. You are always fun to talk to.
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I reassure you all, I am not leaving yet (if at all). If you (and any others that stumble across this comment) want to watch me write my last story, here is a link. You'll have to refresh the page to see any progress I've made. If anyone dares steal my work, then I'll be sad and probably report you and come back to this comment as proof, and that will also mean I will not post my last story. I trust everypony with this. This goes to anypony that clicks that link.
WARNING IT LINKS TO A SEXUAL THEMED STORY
4341534 *Hugs* I know that Mochy, I just don't wanna lose you too if you do leave
DANGIT! I just got here, and one of my friends is fading off!
I respect your choice, and I wish you well on your dormancy. You've made an impact here, Mocha, the sort of impact that no one but you could make: and I just hope you know that.
I'm glad to hear you're not leaving completely... yet. And I hope everything goes well for you from here on out.
Even after you've gone, we won't forget you.
God Bless You, Mocha!
~Amethyst Dawn.
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...... bye bye.....
We'll be here should you decide to stay.
Well, always know one thing: you will never fade. You are an undying light that has shone on the lives of people on this site. You will never be forgotten; you will always be in our hearts.
Besides, I know you're YT channel, so don't expect me to no stick around.
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Don't you all worry, let me quote some things from above:
With that being said, I will most likely not leave the site. And if I ever do in the very late future, I'll find a way to keep in contact with you all. Regarding my comment before (I'm sure you all have seen it, it has very large text with a link to my newest [and first sex-rated*] story). I have added a password to protect it while I pause where I am at and I will take it off tomorrow if anymore is interested in reading what I have so far. If you are interested, please let me know so I can link you. I hope that I have not caused too much trouble/drama.
*There is no sex in the story but it contains suggestive ideas and sexual themes. Trust me, it's for the moral, NOT for any fetishes. I personally believe it's wrong to write these children's cartoon characters in such a way, and I am a hypocrite for saying so, but if it is my last story, I must make it as relatable to myself as possible in order to leave a mark.
4341617 *many snugs!*
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A pox upon me for missing that one.
I can assure you you've caused me no drama, and I hope you accept my apology for the misinterpretation.
4341534 I haven't known you that long Mocha, but I like to think that we are at least friends, if not as close as all the others on this feed alone. I found you when you were going through tough times, but I found, in trying to help you, it got my mind off the bad things in my life. You don't know but you helped me through a time when my grandfather was in the hospital with terminal cancer, and my then 8 year old cousin Kaitlyn had just been told that her cancer was back in force, and had to restart chemo. My Grandfather passed a few days later, and a few months ago, Kaitlyn passed as well. She didn't even get to see her 9th birthday.
The point is, watching and reading, and trying to help you, got my mind off all of that. Just you being on this site has helped me a lot and I thank you for that.
Now I have to ask that you don't leave, even if you don't write anymore. I don't really have anything else to say... honestly....it's going to be a sad day when I no longer see the funny color coded blogs, the links to lets plays, Mocha Draws, and the video blogs.
If you do leave though, I'll definitely make an account on DeviantArt to see how your doing, you already know I got your YouTube ( original 25!)!
All in all, you know what's best for you. Have a good night Mocha.
I feel kinda stupid for not taking the time to get to know you and understand you, a mistake on my part. Despite having less interaction than most, your stories, issues, and happiness have made me care about you in a special way. I know what you're thinking, yes it's like a cliche anime, but its actually true. I don't know what it is but I'm going to be genuinely sad to see you go. But life is life, we all have to move on at some point in time.
I hope you have a wonderful life sugar!
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*hugs* In a nut shell you've found a family on here.
Bye we will always love you, just don,t forget about us okay
*Hugs*
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4341617 I understand what you're thinking. I myself have debated on whether or not I should leave this site many times. The only reason I'm still here is because I get the feeling that something will happen that I need to stick around for. Goodbye Mocha, it was nice knowing you. Wish we could have become better friends.
Alright, I suppose. We'll miss you, but we can't say what's best for you.
your theme:
(Courtesy of Reprise Records by arrangement with Warner Special Products)
4341534 You should stay. XD
I understand. and should the day come that you leave forever and I am not able to give a proper goodbye, it was a pleasure knowing you
I see, and I can understand where you are coming from and thank you for sharing your feelings with us. Though we don't talk very much, I'm glad to be friends with you and that you will be staying around for a while longer, even if not as active
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Sooner or later our time to leave this site has to come. I didn't expect this from you, but now my eyes are wide open. I respect your choice and your decision.
This make me upset since you were one of the first persons I've follow since the beginning, sharing your problems with the rest of us and spending your time with us.
What makes me fear the most is that probably you and I will lose contact over time. I don't want that to happen... but I can guess life resumes in letting things go. Hugs and kisses Mocha, be happy wherever you are and wherever you will be.
Thanks for your help, thanks for your support, thanks for being my first follower, thanks for being my friend.
I never really got to know you that well, but I've heard you're leaving from my other friends. There will always be a time when we have to be ready to leave, and if that is the case, then I wish you good luck.
You will be missed, Vanilla Mocha, but I do understand your decision, the fandom is fading, as with all good things, there is a beginning a middle and an end.
il miss u vanilla but i can always kepp conctat with u and your friends *hugs* just i wish u have a good future the day u leave
Dangit, I thought I posted something a few days ago.
Anyway, I'm sorry to hear about your decreased involvement, but I totally understand. Maintaining a healthy balance is important, especially when you're still very young (in the grand scheme of things) and there's school etc. to be dealt with.
I was also going to say that I finally am planning to give your OC a cameo in one of my stories, which... like, I have been planning for a year, it turns out.
If that's still cool, of ccourse.
Seems like you got the best you could out of FIMfic, and I hope things go well for you. It's good to know when it's time to move on. Sorry I didn't really get to know you too well, but bye nonetheless.