Sorry · 4:07am Aug 28th, 2016
I know I've been all "doom and gloom" lately, and I'd like to apologize for that. I know it's annoying to have other people's misery shoved onto you.
Basically what happened is my antidepressants stopped working one day, and then I randomly decided to go on an anti-medication rebellion, which turned out to be a super bad idea (I even ditched my allergy meds, so now I'm in really bad physical shape as well).
Anyway, after telling people that I'm fat so they should kill me (not sure why that even made sense in my head), I finally took my meds earlier today, passed out, and then woke up feeling better. Too much better. My mum told me she had washed my bedsheets and I found that hilarious. Like, I was rolling around on the floor laughing.
Makes me kind of sad, though, that the only happiness I feel these days is artificially created by my little white pills. Sure, I had some happy moments during my anti-medication rebellion, but those moments were simply that--moments. I'd be running around, smiling and laughing, for maybe five minutes, and then depression would suddenly crash back down on me and the smile would slip off of my face as I fell to the ground, crying over nothing.
I don't really want to be one of those people that brings real life drama onto here, but honestly, I can't help it. Writing these things down helps me a lot, but I have absolutely no drive to write if I don't have an audience. So... I'm sorry if these things bother you guys, I really am, but at some point I have to value my own life over my reputation and other people's opinions. When thoughts are locked inside my head, I go mad, and find myself throwing myself in front of cars. Again.
I've tried to channel my thoughts into dark stories, but it just doesn't work for me. I'm a writer of happy, random stories, not of horror and darkness. Drawing, though... I draw some scary stuff sometimes.
Now if you'll excuse me, I am seriously exhausted, so nighty night.
It's okay Silly Willy!
PM if u get all sad. 
It's okay hun....I be like that often too if I "forget" to take my literal 20 pills per day....
Also Sleepy Panda is SUPER sleepy!!!
Dude tables are the best.
Okay. Goodnight, sweet prince.
I'm glad that you're doing even a little better. If you ever need somone to talk to, vent at, or just have a chat about things, just send me a pm. Just knowing that you have people willing to listen can sometimes make a big difference. I may not know what you are going through, but if I can help you, just let me know.
No prob, sleep well.
Goodnight, kitty.
If writing these down helps you, then I don't mind them.
I'm always here if you need me
4177636 Honestly, you're usually at work or asleep. And when you're not, then I'm at work/asleep.
4177639 doesn't mean you can't talk to me
4177640 I know, but it's hard for me to wait hours for you to be online again.
4177642 I wish I could be online more often
4177650 Doesn't everyone? But real life always takes priority.
4177655 sadly that's true
If it helps, I don't mind...
It's okay friend. If you ever need to talk about anything I'm here