Hey.... · 4:10am Jun 23rd, 2016
hey everyone i dont know whats going on with me right now but i dont think ive ever felt this depressed... i mean i have been more depressed than this but it just feels like an un-natrual medical depression.
I also have some bad news..... I didnt tell anyone but my boyfriend so hear it goes. I know ive told people i have depression and bad and i dont diny that, there is no dinying that. But until now i was never medicaly diegnosed with it. I had always just gotten the pilles and eventually stoped and convinsed my family i was fine again by ....umm..... hidding things really well even though it takes me forever to clean if i stain somthing and i have to sneek in my grandmas room and take her stain removing stick to get the blood out.......But anyway I've now been ofisally diegnosed with depression and my family knows im depressed but my boyfriend doesnt know that yet, he never comes on hear and he never looks at my page, (HA somthing i wish he did but doesnt comes to my advantige) but im not on medication for it and i take it every morning and it lasts all day i mean its probably going to becume a chalenge when i have to start using my ADHD meds again because the depression pills basicaly make my sadness go down and my happyness go up and my ADHD just keeps my emotions at nutrual as long as im nural in the morning. So we still need to work that out cuz if im to happy i get milk dumped on my head in the cafitera (trust me worse has happened).
but yeah whatever this was all 2-3 weeks ago i was resently on vacation in branson, missurie (died in silver dollar city twice, fainted playing miniatur golf, took picturs with a bunch dead and alive people at the wax musium, got the shit scared out of me everytime my door bell rang because it was for the hearing impared, had to baby sit a three year old boy a 9 year old girl who throws a lot of fits and a kid with autisum, had no fun at white water because i couldnt walk on the god forbiden asfault and then went threw the tinaic musium which was really nice and relaxing) yep fuuuuun
anyway thats preatty much an update, im so sorry i havnt wrote any chapters on my storys ive been really lazy latly and i should start doing it CUZ IM SO FAT I NEED SOMTHING TO DISTRACT ME FROM FUCKING FOOD DX
have i mentioned im 4'11 and weigh 150 pounds probably more now sines im such a fat ass. but anyway byyyeee.
*hugs* Sorry to hear things aren't going to well, I do hope that it all starts to change soon. And don't worry about your weight too much, to be honest I'm much heavier than you are. And don't worry about your stories, for now just relax and find some peace in your life to enjoy.
Don't worry about your stories. Life is much more important. And you should tell your boyfriend. Honesty is important in a relationship, and he can maybe help you.