My first ever blog, and an explanation.

So, I just published Trapped after a break of sorts. I'm aware I only have a few followers on FIMFiction, and you all have much more important things to be doing than reading this, so I'll try to be as brief as possible.

My life (from a personal perspective) over the last few months has been... difficult to say the least. It's all very bitchy and teenager-type problems, so I won't bore you with the details. Suffice to say that one of the major motivations I had for first watching My Little Pony and writing fanfiction about it is now gone from my life. Since then I've really struggled with mild depression and panic attacks, at a time when (for many reasons) my friends haven't been around to support me. More relevant to you guys is the fact that I've been struggling to write fanfiction. I've had no inspiration or will. I tried a few times and I have a few one-shots and longer stories that are half finished and which never will be finished.

Recently things have become slightly better. I've moved on a little, put a few demons to rest, talked it out. So I sat down and wrote Trapped, inspired by a marathon of Murder She Wrote, although that's not really evident in the story. It was supposed to be a one-shot, but I got to the final closing paragraph and was hit by indecision. As someone in the comments of Trapped has pointed out, it is not a one-shot type of story, with a definitive ending. Put simply, I got to the end and I didn't want to stop writing, so I left it open and fully intended the to write another chapter or two.

Then I hit a low point again, in terms of my mental state. I go from highs to lows pretty often, so that was no surprise, but I suddenly felt like I didn't want to write any more. Trapped was sitting on the FIMFiction database, so I published it anyway, with the open ending. I know that eventually I'll want to finish it and I will, but I don't know when it'll be. With university starting in a couple of weeks I'll also have less time to write. However, I will try and keep writing and putting stuff on here when I can, and try not to go another 3 months without publishing any content.

Thank you for reading.

Comments

[Incognito1]

Contrary to what you seem to believe, some people on FIMfiction do care and understand. Especially when they experienced a similar (yet slightly more drastic) situation. Yep, you guessed it...

I do sense, however, that you'd rather not discuss it with random, unknown, anonymous people on the internet. That is understandable. Even if I, personally, enjoy the anonymity. Depends on who you are. How you were raised. Things like that.

This is the most boring comment. Ever.

I'm glad to see you writing again. I really do enjoy your work.

Best of luck.