An Explanation

Also I've been really, really sick. Like, can't walk without a cane anymore levels of bad.

But mostly that first chart is way too real.

Comments

[Alamandir]

Second image doesn't work. You added a '?' and a '1' to the end of the URL.

[MrNumbers]

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Nah, I used Imgur. I previewed it and it works on my end, but it appears it's only for me. Reuploading it somewhere else.

Just until I can get it rehosted, here's a direct link.

[Posted]

The triangle is indeed a strong symbol of self-doubt.

3880740

It actually works fine for me. Though it is on imgur which some people can't see on this site.

[JustTheBast]

Imgur is still blocking embedding of images on Fimfiction pages. You can link to the image page on imgur's server, but embedding and even directly linking to the image would probably not work, since the referrer header would still be set to a page on the "fimfiction.net" domain.

You can see the image in the post preview, because it's already in your browser's cache, so Imgur's server doesn't get a request to block, but other users looking at the blog post will only get a broken image.

[Cynewulf]

That first chart is way way too real.

[PegasusMesa]

Have you considered adding more cowbell to your diet?

[Ms Loopy do]

hey...just...*hugs tight*

[Oliver]

I find that reducing the scale of the triangle by publishing in smaller chunks helps, but it might be just me.

Also, it doesn't "work only for you", it's just stuck in your browser cache, because you have previously opened it on imgur itself by uploading. Should one open it directly on imgur without presenting a referer, it will load, and then the browser will just continue showing the previously downloaded copy.

Imgur banned fimfiction a few weeks ago, alas.

[Majin Syeekoh]

That triangle is too true.

[MrNumbers]

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3880751

I knew about the ban, but forgot about the cache.

I thought someone had just called them on their blacklisting bullshit, maybe, and that stuff was sliding through. Testing it was my equivalent of poking the horror movie monster with a stick to make sure it's dead.

Alas! The Creature from the Blacklist Lagoon did indeed lurch once my back was turned.

[Dream Seeker]

You spelled embarrassment wrong in the image.

And yes, that chart is so real.

[Flynt Coal]

That triangle is most definitely too real. On another topic, where are you hosting these images right now? I've been trying to find a new place to do so here with little success

[MrNumbers]

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Shoutout to Steel Resolve for pointing me to snag.gy

[Dastardly Hun]

Sick? Which needs a cane? What? What did you catch?

[Von Voctavia]

I love your story if it helps :)

I also heard it's best to write for yourself. Fans can never agree to what they want so it's okay to loose a few. The ones that remain will build a stronger fanbase.

[MrNumbers]

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Neurological disorder. Brain's degenerating or something. EEG next Thursday to confirm, but until then "Or something" is still very possible. Just an utter bitch to look directly at things, and know they're there, but your brain edits it out of your sight. Or to feel your memory eroding. I'm starting to lose the ability to hold thoughts when I get tired, so I'll think of a sentence, and then I've forgotten the end of the sentence by the middle of it, and in trying to remember the end I've forgotten what I was thinking about -- which doesn't sound so unusual, but it does so in a way that I can feel myself forgetting it, even as I grab onto the thought? It honestly feels like sand passing through your hands, in a sense, as opposed to just simple "What was I thinking about again?" distractedness.

But yeah, all that makes my motor control super dodgy, and my legs aren't being super co-operative.

[Slavenger Karl]

I'm at emotional crisis. And yet have to move up the chart.

[QueenMoriarty]

People ask me why I don't fear the possibility of every part of my life being violently ripped away by a car crash.

I tell them it's because I know a guy whose brain is slightly less messed up than plant life in Chernobyl.

Also, that first chart... that's an artist's life, true enough.

[FanOfMostEverything]

That triangle is made of solid truth.

Also, here's hoping for a speedy recovery.

[Dastardly Hun]

3880826 That...... is quite worrying. Brain stuff are scary as heck. And I now have no idea if I should wish for the "or something", a " false alarm" or a "temporaly issue". Well, whichever makes you feel better, I can't do anything, besides trying to cheer you up, but that can result in unintended things happening.
Sooo, I'll now act as if you're totally alright, until asked otherwise. *ahem* Moar chapturzzz!
You seriously have a folder named NS for Woona?:D:D

[Lucasmembrane]

3880826

Ouch, I'm sorry to hear that, and hope there's something that can help.

I'm moderately familiar with the thing with the sentences... I often find myself composing stories in my head, but never write them, mostly because all the words fly away as soon as I start typing (no neurological condition I know of, just generally can't brain). I've found that using a voice recorder is actually a wonderful thing, assuming you can get over the weird embarrassing feeling of listening to yourself tell a story (I've never actually managed that last part, but I've at least verified that I can effectively compose this way).

[MrNumbers]

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Right imagine that, but for an idea that is only as long as this sentence.

How it happens for me when I try to think that for the first time;

"Right, imagine that... big... size of something... Size of what... size of... imagine... imagine... fuck"

[Southpaw]

Potential addition to the chart: Emotional crisis point at the high ends of Self Doubt and Narcissism, where the love/hate ratio is equal right from the start.

Hope you get better, soon, Numbers.

Not sure how far along you are, but let me know if you'd like an earlier assist on this chapter.

[Blue_Paladin42]

Things are getting worse then?

[Blue_Paladin42]

As for imgur, I doubt rather much that the blacklist is going to end here. Aside from the fact that embedding images on other sites actually does break their rules (even if it does feel like that rule is rather counter-intuitive to the site's function), imgur seems to REALLY hate anything related to MLP.

[Monarch Dodora]

Aah, shit on a totem pole. I hope the scan shows something reversible.

Have they mentioned if they think it's, like, a particular, named condition? I mean, I imagine your doctors are going to be the foremost experts in this stuff and there's not a lot any of us could contribute, but... well, there are a lot of intelligent people here who might be able to, like, dig through medical histories and cross-reference things and I don't know what. Perhaps find something that might help.

[Reese]

Oh, dear. Good luck. I'm sorry I don't have more to say than that.

[SIGAWESOME]

Do not forget the alt-text to the image:

Of course, every time the cycle is completed it shifts right.

[Noble Cause]

Fuck me, dude, 12 K?

... sorry, I think I squee'd so hard that multiple dimensions just heard me. I am SO excited for it!

... ... that said? Health comes first. You feel better soon, okay? Take as long as you need. We've been patient this long, we can wait a bit more.

[Flynt Coal]

3880795 Sweet, thanks bud. Here's hoping everything works out for you!