Nightmare Scratch · 3:53am Feb 25th, 2016
I had EMDR treatment yesterday, which was basically where I did guided meditation while holding two vibrating devices. I know. That sounds really weird. The therapist said it was an exercise to trigger something hidden in my brain so that we could find the stuff that keeps me from functioning like a well-adjusted adult. She said that the side effects could include heightened awareness, increase in mood, insomnia, and nightmares...among other things.
I said, "Pfft, yeah right. This hypno-crap is going to do nothing."
Well last night I had a freaking nightmare. It sucked. I wrote it down in my journal. In a nutshell: I was cut out of my family and replaced by someone else. It was some real changeling crap, lemme tell you.
The interesting thing was that today was a very good day! So I guess it wasn't that bad of a dream, but still.
I have to write chapter 9 for What They Expect to Give from scratch because I'm a masochist. I keep telling myself, "Okay! Now we're going to use the chapters we wrote ahead of time from here on out." Yeah, right. I just keep adding stuff in between and pushing other things back. I mean, I like the new directions the story is going in, but if this keeps up, I'm going to have to slow down my update schedule. I'm feeling a little more scattered in my thoughts, so I've had trouble focusing. I wonder if that was a result from the EMDR thing?