New Years Posting - Veterans Monologue

Hello World,

Not sure why I'm posting here maybe it's because I'm shouting into the darkness and hoping something responds. Or maybe it's because as a veteran I feel truly alone in this world. I joined this Fandom when I was still in the Army and what due me to it at first was the amazing talents of Lauren Faust and how she has been with me through childhood. But it's evolved into something much more, the people here are very amazing and the stories I read (hourly might I add) make me feel welcome and entertain me from this endless drift in the harbor of my sorrows and past. It's taken me a full two years to find myself again and as a 25 year old veteran I have done things I'm not proud of but I have also done things that are the silver lining in the perpetual stormfront that all servicemen have.

I've been messageed by a few who thank me for favoriting their story and to each and every one of them I let them know that I add them to a physical book that I read to kids at schools I volunteer at. Your stories bring them happiness and me as well. But my personal well being is currently at stake because in the past two years I've come to realize that I have no more physical friends. I'm afraid, afraid of the outside world not because of what it is but what it's made me into. In my hometown in california and the city I reside in while using my post 911 school funds I am known as a monster in my neighborhood. Not through action but because people fear what I could be, as a veteran of 6 years I've had to see many things in the military police world and even lay down my own brothers in arms cause they needed help and commited heinous acts again the people they swore to protect. It's gotten to the point because I'm a citizen and a war fighter that people have treated me horribly. I've been beaten, slapped, spit on, and publicly ranted against by citizens and police who know nothing of the world I know and that's what scares me most.

To those of you who have followed me I thank you from the bottom of my heart and I truly appreciate how you have befriended me over this social platform and tonight my news year resolution is to change completely. Physically and mentally I will become what people want me to be and not be myself because that's the only way I can make friends or even go on a date (which 101 times in two years ive been stood up and or dumped)

I love you all and please keep writing it's what keeps me going. If you see a vet get to know him and if you know a vet befriend him cause that's all we have left.

Best wishes and happy new years,
Iclearskies