10 months · 10:03pm Nov 8th, 2015
Hi there! If you saw this pop up on your notifications, and blinked, thinking to yourself, "Who's this Habanc-guy? Didn't he do that thing or another?" then I'm not terribly surprised. I used to be around FimFiction a lot, once upon a time. I think my last story was published in January.
Well, it's November now, and I don't think I've been on much since. Truth be told, I don't think I would've had much ability to do so, either. An exhaustive process of applying for internships, interviews, and school soon melded into a summer in Los Angeles, working an internship at a dream job. Somewhere along the way, FimFiction, MLP, Tuna... it all faded away into the background. I wouldn't think about it for weeks. Kinetics? Oh, yeah... I'll get to that sometime.
I'm back in school now, and if I'm heart-wrenchingly honest, it's all still in the obscure background. I'm working while attending school, I live with roommates now that (entertainingly) pull me this way and that, and most prominently, my sound design is increasingly taking priority; I have to be better at it if I want to fight for the incredibly sparse jobs it provides. I only have maybe another year before I'm out of school, probably shuttling myself 3,000 miles across the continent, all on my own. I don't really know how, or even if I'll survive out there. Regardless, I want to go. Sound design is something I'm absolutely in love with, and I'll be damned if I end up working something else. So, in the void that Fimfiction left, other stuff has filled.
Since then, I've sorta grown callous. MLP as a whole doesn't hold the same allure to me. It's still very much a part of my life, one that I'll always look fondly on, but perhaps not in the present. I've tried poking my stories, booting them up and looking for that comfortable roll that would churn out words, but it doesn't work. I don't know why. The show is still okay, it makes for a nice way to get my mind off things as I can't fall asleep – but if I'm honest, I was never here for the show.
I'm not really thrilled about this. I routinely loved writing here, but now I really can't be enthused at all, even when I want to be. It's not me being jaded, nor is it "growing up" (fuck that in all of it's entirety); it's kinda like when you leave play-doh out in the air too long, uncared-for – it turns hard like concrete, foreign to what you knew it as, unable to play with anymore.
But, I want you guys to know, those who are hopefully reading and have made my time here absolutely amazing. I don't even know if some of you are still around. Nevertheless, thank you Tuna Chat. Thank you TheLastBrunnenG. Thank you Willsons, Poco, Mighty, Jack, and Pearp.
I don't know if this is the end. I hope not. Maybe I'll still poke around some more, read a few fics and keep dickin' around. But with my schedule crazy, with my routine of leaving at 8am and getting home twelve hours later, I can't say for certain. I want this to be like some sort of backup, in case I vanish completely, and someone wants to know where I've trotted off to.
Maybe I'm just worried that this crazy period of my life will send everything spiraling away from what I knew it to be, when in actuality I'll crawl out the other side of it, just fine and dandy. I don't know.
What I do know is that I want to continue to write in some capacity or another. Once I figure out where I'm going to keep writing, and what it'll be, I'll put it up here somewhere. Y'know, just in case you'd like to read. Also, if you'd like to find a more expedite way of contacting me, feel free to send me an email at ajlunshy@gmail.com.
Until I figure out what to do with myself, y'all should keep on rocking.
- Hab
P.s. Thank you, Mighty and Brunnen, for still reaching out to me. It means a lot.
P.s.s. Brunnen, this was the reply I didn't quite know how to put together. I'm sorry if my absent-ness worried you.
Dude
wb.
Take your time, some of us have been waiting for new chapters by other authors 12 months +. So everything is good as long as you do not give up everything here completely.
If this is the end, then thank you. For everything. For hours of entertainment while I read your work, and for the hours after, waiting for more, thinking up alternative endings, thinking from different characters sides, and just tons of fun.
Now, I never wrote on this site (as, though I like writing, I suck at it, and don't have the time to invest practising), but I did read alot, though these last few months my reading here has been just about none, as life sorta stopped me. I got hit with this complete feeling of emptiness and hopelessness, and soon after got a boyfriend, who, though he lives do far away from me (Germany / Norway) helps me get through it.
Also, good luck getting employment as a sound designer! It's not easy, you should try coming to Norway where the slots are basically none in anything that has to do with sound..
Much love
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~Sylvia
Wait, who are you? :P
You're alive and well and pursuing your dreams. Everything else is bonus gravy.
Drop in when you can. We'll be here. You've got my email if you feel froggy.
Damn, I'm gonna miss Kinetics. Slap a Hiatus tag on it if you haven't already.
Where ever you end up, J, good luck and knock 'em dead.
Wow, jeez man it has been a while.
I reckon you'll do great, if you put your mind to your job and friends they way you did to writing you'll churn out some amazing stuff. Honest. I loved your stuff, still do. So please, please, please if you do anything new, anything at all, even if it isn't writing drop a link in a little blog post and soon as I see it I'll give it a look.
Seeing my little name in that list of people was incredibly touching, thanks for that. Definitely going to shoot of a email to you, just to get it saved in.
Thanks for the journey, best of luck on yours and I can't wait to see where it takes you next,
Willsons.
Dammit, I just can't keep doing this...
Well, I hope life treats you well, whatever direction it leads you in. Your contributions here have been and will be missed.
Watching this fandom die the slow death of attrition and apathy breaks my heart, though.
I miss you man ;~;