Anarchy Digi Log

Hi. This blog is strictly for those who feel down and miserable and feel they have no one to talk to.

So, this needs to be discussed. Why are there so many people on this site that want to commit suicide? Seriously, I've seen three possible suicide blogs in the past week, and the week isn't even over! One guy disappeared for almost a month, but I think he's back now. The kind, sweet side of me says you guys have lots of people on this site that are willing to listen and help in any way they can. You can't just give up when you haven't even bothered listening to other people who try to help you.

The tough love side of me says you have no right whatsothehellever to take your life. God gave you your life for a reason. He has a reason for making you go through the things I did. I got a sever cold when I was 5. That paid off now because it boosted my immune system like crazy. I used to get hurt a lot as a kid. Now I practically laugh when I'm in pain. I always had a hard time in school even though I'm, as many people have said, not me, smart. Why? Because I learn by action. Whatever happens in your life happens for a reason. You suffer, you make mistakes, you feel miserable. Good. There are always road bumps in life. Bad experiences now just mean you get them out of the way early. Is left meant to be easy? No. A song once said, "Life's a bitch, so if it's easy your doing it wrong." Einstein was so dumb at first, he couldn't walk until he was four and failed basic math for most of his education, yet created one of the very foundations of physics. Ben Carson was constantly bullied as a kid and was easily bored by classes; he became a brilliant neurosurgeon and the first person to successfully separate Siamese twins.

I have been through more rough patches than you could possibly imagine. Forget the whole cheerful and goofy thing. I'm actually pretty upset about how many things in my life have gone. I've been bullied, insulted, and just made miserably for a long time. But I took it a different way. Maybe God put me here as a beacon. Most people would punch someone who insults them in the face without a second thought. You can insult me from now till next year, I'll just stand and stare (mostly I just block you out or laugh). I'm one of those people you meet that are so kind that if I one day decide to act as selfish as most other people, I would wind up rupturing the balance of the universe! I'm that nice.

And I'm a good listener. I had a friend who was an eyeliner and makeup away from being a total goth. At the end of our senior prom, he told me, "When we leave, just forget about me. I don't just want to be another memory occupying space in you head." I knew he had problems in school with people mostly because of something that happened in his past school. So I told him, "Not happening. I never forget people that easily. I've known you and talked to you well enough to say I can never forget you. I always remember people for the good things they have done, and you, despite everything, have done good things. Those are what I'll remember you for." I won't go into detail, but I will say we left on really good terms and it was a happy ending.

I've been betrayed many times by people who I thought were or could've been my friends. I was once ratted out by a potential friend for saying something bad about our physics teacher, and that particular teacher can get very personal. Despite me and four other witnesses denying it (there was a fifth who supported him), I still got kicked out of his class for al a week, and this was close to exam time. Another friend went behind my back to tell our boarding parents that I had a history of sleeping in class. There will always be traitors. The point is to learn to watch people closely before you start to trust them with anything.

I've also had plenty of people make fun of me because of the way I behave. I'm sometimes clumsy, I love , movies, series, and games and love to talk about them and sound like a complete dork because I can remember them so accurately, and variety of other things. But I live by something Marylin Monroe said, "If you can't handle me at my worst, then you don't deserve me at my best." If you don't like how I am, then don't bother because I'm not going to change who I am just because you don't like it.

I am studying to become an engineer and storyboard writer/producer/director, but I have also taken time to observe human behavior. Think of me as that guy on the internet who so unrealistically caring that I might as well be talking to my smartphone about this stuff that's bugging me. If you've got any problems, struggles, or just feel down, I'll be here for you as much as possible. This is a site where I've met people I care about, and I'd hate to see any of them feel bad or hurt themselves because they feel sad.

Until next time, I leave you with this AMV for Wakfu. Let the song speak to you. Enjoy.

ANARCHY OUT!

Comments

[Sunman145]

Nova, I will give you a pat on the back and give you props for being the most generous and interesting man I have meet yet.

And I agree with this blog. All of it!