So uh hi (plz read) · 3:51am Jul 27th, 2015
So um.. I'm pretty sure no one has even noticed me or anything, been sitting in my little corner, only talk to the people who approach me.. Yeah
So in case you haven't noticed, I've been even quieter than usual(well duh you'd notice, you didn't even know I was still here). I've going through some shit lately and I forget to come one here a lot now. I'm depressed as fuck, to be honest.
I never actually finished what I had to say about my 'best friend' , so to shorten that up:
I tried to tell him stuff, he did his whole "I'm sorry it's complicated, Im busy" act and then a week or two later, last day of school I got my friend to ask him why he wouldn't talk to me and he said, and I quote:
Becuz I don't feel like having to hear her complain saying she want to die and all but she's afraid. I'm just done in fed up Im ready to say ok. Kill urself
Yeah so that was fun
I'm pretty much as done as he is, if love to commit suicide, right now I don't give a shit. There literally is no one left for me, also something I never said: I lost my boyfriend that same day. Along with all my friends. I would kill to have the one person that might still care about me here right now. I haven't talked him in months.
But I don't want to kill myself, well I do but it's just confusing, it's like I do but then, I'm scared of what I would see from the afterlife.
That if I looked back to this world and the people I care to damn much about, would I just see them happy and shit like they already are without me, even knowing that I cry myself to sleep every night.
Would they even notice me gone?
Probably not.
Because honestly, I know they don't care. They hate me.
And they should
:(
Why do all the people you know sound like dicks?
Anyway, I'd like to get some things straight. Please do not commit suicide. Lots of people WILL miss you. I will feel bad, knowing I could have prevented it.
Please talk to your friends, or non-friends, and get them to understand the mind set you are in. Being depressed isn't your fault, and nobody should hate you.
I don't hate you, you seem like a nice person.
So please, try to change your situation, by talking to people, by thinking about why you are depressed. Because the only way it's going to change is if you do something about it, because your 'friends' don't seem like they're going to do much without your input.
Please, get better. Hope I helped.
3273106 well the input won't do any good, that's actually why they hate me. I've tried to tell them, but it's done no good
3274966 So they hate you because you're trying to explain your situation to them?