Some pretty fuckin' terrible news · 5:52am Jul 24th, 2012
My extended absence this weekend is attributed to many things, chiefly this:
My sister and co-author passed away at the age of 27.
She was many things to me, but first and foremost she was my friend and mentor. My life will never be the same without her, and let it be known that the herd has lost a pegasister. Up until now, she's liked to keep her involvement in writing the story secret, as she was a police officer. She kept her online life strict to say the least. Should anyone in her precinct discover she was authoring erotic fiction about a children's show, her job would have been forefeit. Alas, A Different Kind of Love is down a writer.
My thoughts are going in all directions at once, so please, forgive me my scatterbrained-ness.
She passed of a heart attack. Doctors say poor diet and anxiety were to blame. She was 27 years old. Her name was Tasha Williams. She was my elder sister, my friend, my mentor, and my closest family member.
The story will continue. I feel more compelled to write now than I ever have before.
At the same time, I'm in more need of support than ever. Please, I'd hate to ask any of you, but any words of encouragement, sympathy, or well wishes would not fall on deaf ears. I'm having a difficult time coping, mostly thanks to professional obligation and general disbelief that she's gone.
At the SAME same time, the show must go on. I will attempt to adapt my style and deliver the same high-quality material that you all have come to know and love. She assisted mostly with the clop portion and some grammatical issues. Character development and plot were mostly in my hands. If the erotic portions seem to be suffering, I apologize in advance.
Wow, I'm really out of it.
I hope most of this makes sense.
Here's a synopsis:
My sister died. And I'm fucking heartbroken about it. But I'm going to keep writing, both to honor her memory and to keep delivering quality material to my friends and fans. I ask if you have ANY words of encouragement or sympathy, please, say them. I need them now more than ever.
Thank you all. We'll miss you, sis.
I can't not say how sorry I am for you. I really am sorry.
Death leaves a heartache that no one can heal, but the memories that you have with her, no one can steal.
i am sorry that you lost her, it is difficult to lose someone that is so close to you, and i know that you will miss her greatly.
it is ashame that she is gone, a pegasister and a cop no less, but it is in times like this that we must remember that she lived a great life, and that the memories that you shared between you two will last forever.
i am again sorry
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Thank you.
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Yeah, me either... I feel kinda out of it, but at the same time, I'm writing fairly well. I don't really feel myself through this whole ordeal. I've faced detatchment issues before, but never this bad. I'm hoping a dual-chapter release and some more words of sympathy and encouragement will help. Am I pathetic? Just a little.
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That was beautiful. Thank you.
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I've been down that road before. I've been in 4 hospitals for it in the past. While I may drink my fair share of alcohol, I'm about as straight-edge as your average independent 22-year-old can get... I won't fall, and if I do, it won't be hard. Trust me. I've got a pretty powerful story behind my own struggle with suicide. I may feel out of it, but my head is still above those dark waters.
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For sure. Thank you.
Another reason to love this fanbase. We're there for eachother when one of our herd is gone, to keep us all strong. I love this show, this site, and all of you.
Ad Me in the group with ppl u can talk to, while im not to good with words (and are a sweed) i will do my best if you EVER need even the smallest of company
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>>Loyal2-1 and here u goy my fb and twitter, use any of them if u want Loyal2-1
we feel for u man
From one fellow writer to the next, I'm very sorry for your loss. I won't tell you that I can imagine how much pain you're in, because I don't think I can. But I can offer a listening ear for you, for anything you need. If you need a person to listen to you, please feel free to send me a PM or post on my user page. You have my sympathies and my condolences, wherever she may be right now, I think she would be really proud to see that you are gonna continue her work. From Singapore, I offer what I can. Again, if you need a listening ear, please know that I'll gladly lend one.
With sympathies,
Deathscar
My heart goes out to you and your family, friend. I lost a cousin once, I can't imagine losing my only brother. If you ever need to talk feel free to PM me, I'll give you my # or my MSN/Skype whatever works for you. Rest in peace, Tasha.
The herd will rally when one of its own needs help. That's how it got to be the herd in the first place.
For now, don't worry about making sense to us. Make some sense to yourself. Give yourself a chance to work through this. And you will work through this: I've lost three out of four siblings, and at no time was it easy, but it's something you have to do. We'll be here while you need us, and we'll be here when you get back to writing.
that truly sucks bro, you have my deepest sympathy.
hopefully you can overcome this and live your life like she would have wanted you to. i haven't read any of your stuff, tara strong retweeted this link about you having a hard time. i wish you all the best man. im sure you'll do a fine job with her absence.
i hope you can cope with this loss as best you can
Wow, just wow. That is some heavy shit. I am very sorry for your loss. A wise man I once knew said "the universe naturally balances itself out. You can see it in water, the air, in basic cellular functions; everything is working to that great equilibrium" I don't know what to say other than I hope you can reach that balance soon. I've had a brother pass, not to mention by his own hands, a long while ago when I was a child, well before I understood what death really was, what suicide really was. I can't say much, but I can say that if you need an ear or something, let me know man.
I'm not the greatest poet around, but hopefully my words could bring you at least some comfort. Once again I am sorry for your loss. May the road ahead be calm and forgiving.
Just got the Twitter message from Tara Strong (dunno if she missed the "erotic" part, or just doesn't care if erotic or not (probably the latter))
I wish I could say some stuff to help, but I'm no good when it comes to the death of a family member. Rest in peace, Tasha. May your soul be lifted up on pegasus wings to the world beyond.
Stay strong Loyal2-1/Anon Williams. She's in a better place. Heaven, if you believe that. Equestria, if you don't. Or Equestria if you do, who knows what happens.
(And sorry if my touches of humor didn't help)
247389 Tara's mentioned before she doesn't care about stuff like that, and neither does the good majority of this fanbase. Even those of us with different tastes are still bronies and the herd will rally to support them <3
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Thank you all so much for your help. And thanks to Tara Strong for keeping an eye on her fanbase. It's devotion the likes of that which sets this show apart from any and all others. I appreciate every word spoken (Er, typed) here today.
I will pull through this. I'm a strong individual with some strong friends and a loyal and devoted fanbase behind me. I'm in tears, not for my loss, but for all the support I've received. I almost lost it when I heard about Tara retweeting this, but you know what? I'm happy. I owe many happy memories to this show and it's actors. If any of you want to chat regularly, my name is Jordan Williams, and feel free to add me on Facebook. Additionally, my e-mail is jordanwilliams08@gmail.com
I work nights, so you night owls have a fellow brony out there.
And up there, too, I suppose.
Once more, thank you all so much.
I'm so terribly sorry to hear this.
For what it's worth, here's a long hug through the Internet.
First of all, know that you have my heart-felt sympathies, this is tough for you, but know that we all love you despite perhaps not knowing who you are personally. One does not have to know someone to love them.
However I feel that I should lend you at least some of my opinion on death (although I cannot write it all up now, it would take ages), which is: one does not truly die, one only transcends. That is to say, while we may perish, we do not 'end'. Whether or not it is your opinion that there in an afterlife, or that ones mind is separate to the body. Know that her physical form helps the ground become fertile, progresses the circle of life, and that her spirit fuels you and wills you to be happy, love and succeed, it is my belief (although I am for a lack of a better term, agnostic) that she still watches and loves you.
If anything I have said has offended you (I sincerely hope not
), I apologise.
I will follow you and endeavour to read your work to honour you both, it has sat in my 'read later' list for too long!
-Six
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Well, I live in Singapore, so I'm around 12 hours behind you. If you find yourself in need of somepony to talk to at 12AM onwards, you know who to call! (Ghostbusters! Sorry, couldn't resist :P ))
Got sent here from Tara's retweet, but what helped me most when I lost my elder brother two years ago in afghanistan, was the feeling that I now had my own personal guardian angel of whom I love and loves me. I can't tell you that things got better for me or if it will for you, but I admire your resilience to pick yourself up and finish your story. I am sorry for your loss and I truly believe that someday we all will be able to see our loved ones again when we move on. Because I choose to believe that and I hope my brother and your sister will be proud of us when we see them again.
247397 Hey man anytime. Just a FYI spammers do index this site, you should just say your email is "such and such" at g-mail dot com or something like that, to avoid getting spamzor'd. Glad to hear you're hangin' in there, keep it up man
I never met your sister. I wish I had. I don't know why people have to leave us when there's so much life to be lived. If you need someone to talk to, we're all here.
;__; my sincere condolences Loyal2-1
i dont know what to write, to make you feel better, i guess it's because there is nothing to say at the moment.
time heals all wounds, but you will allways reminde her. so make the best out of (sorry somehow this sounds awefull to me) it and try to remember all the happy moments you shared...
take you time, life is never only pleasent and easy
It probably doesn’t means much but I’m sorry for your loss. It’s always hard to lose somebody so close. I’ve a similar relationship with my father who’s already 63 and the thought that he’ll be gone one day is unsettling at best. But all we can do is moving one with our lives, be thankfully for every moment we could share with our loved ones and keep them in good memories.
Take all the time you need and don’t try to rush out the next chapters of your story just because you think you owe us anything. If you’re in the mood to continue do so and if not just stop. Don’t force yourself into doing something you don’t want.
I've seen a bunch of people pass away in my lifetime. A close friend of mine died of leukemia around 6 months ago, my aunt whom I was also very close to died two years ago from chemotherapy, and my grandfather (who's life I helped reform, he said the last time I saw him) passed away from skin cancer somewhere in his right arm, accompanied by a heart attack. That's just to name a few.
I've seen death plenty. I've been in depression for a few weeks after. However, no matter how much she may have affected your life and you affected hers, I'm certain that one day you'll be able to pick yourself up and move on. If you feel tempted to stop writing because of her death, I say that this feeling is temporary. She may have been a co-author, but losing someone who helped you and made you a better writer shouldn't stop you. In fact, I'd say that since you became a better writer through this experience that you should keep pushing forward. I don't know your sister, but I think she would have wanted you to keep going.
Life will become better. Find something to hold on to, and you'll be pulled out of the ocean.
I hope this helped. Seriously man, don't be weighed down, you'll go into a state of depression that you'll never shake off and you're going to seem like a big prick to everyone, and judging from how it's easy for you to treat people kindly on the Internet you must be a really great guy in real life.
I'm not one for giving inspirational speeches, but I really feel like this will help you.
TL;DR There's always people you can share the feels with to help you get back up.
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I know it hurts and I wish I can say that it will soon stop, but I'd be lying. It will never stop hurting. But I can promise you it will be easier to deal with in time. I personally believe that the pain is a good thing because it shows just how great that person was. I am so sorry for your lose and I can emphasize. My cousin died almost a year ago to the day after being in a coma for almost 7 months. It still hurts even now to think about it. She was the sister I wish I had but even though she isn't here anymore, I still have all the memories of the good times I had before she left us. As long as you remember the good times, your sister will never truly be gone. And don't worry, you'll see her again one day
just not too soon though
I'm sure she was a great woman, Loyal. I would've liked to meet her. The herd shall mourn her, despite not knowing her.
I hope you feel better Loyal
“Death is not the greatest loss in life. The greatest loss is what dies inside us while we live.” - Anonymous
It's hard. It's heartbreak, especially to anybody who was as close as you and your sister. The dark times may come. But better times will rise.
"Death is terrifying because it is so ordinary. It happens all the time.” - Susan Cheever
She will always be in the memory of those who were close to her, especially you, as her younger sibling. I hope you still see her memory in everything she touched, saw, wrote, said, and did.
“Death ends a life, not a relationship.” - Robert Benchley
“As long as I have a want, I have a reason for living. Satisfaction is death." - George Bernard Shaw
“If you should die before me, ask if you could bring a friend” - Anonymous
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My words cannot express how much all of your sympathy means to me. It's thanks to all of you I'm able to keep my head so high. That, and a lot of really good music...
I've been trying to find it, but where is the tweet Tara shared this from? I just want to know so I can possibly send her my thanks...
Thank you all for everything you've ever done for me. It's not just my writing that's been shared with you all, but my life experiences, my tears and triumphs all together. Thank you all so much for your kind love, caring, and support.
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It was this tweet, that she retweeted.
I speak for all of us when I say your sister will not be quickly forgotten. Ive been through my parents divorce at 5, but it was nothing compared to this. You are a stronger man than I for being able to bear it.
The Equestrian flag will be flying at half-staff today. Stay strong, and brony/pony on.
248779>> Loyal2-1 Oh... My... God... that´s my tweet...
holy... she actuarly saw it
that one is for you Loyal, for beeing so awsome
249788 Um.... I just wanted to know why you felt the need to respond to my comment with that.
was trying to get it to Loyal and I thought it whould be wierd if I randomly said it to his comment...
still a noob lol
247397 she saw my tweet?...
(passes out with a big smile)
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Well thank you very much for putting that out there. I guess I owe you one, heh...
250188 and your stories are more then enough, im just happy i can help
Hey there.
I don't know who you are (I was sent here from Tara Strong's retweet), but I do know how you feel. I know what it's like to lose someone so important in life. Everyone does. It really sucks, I know. Just know that people care.
And even though you may find it extremely difficult at this time, think of the good times, and try your best to keep a smile on your face.