The Crashing Storm · 12:52am Jun 13th, 2015
Sometimes in life, one just has to be poetic. Words alone, could ever grasp the way I feel, or do feel, or will feel.
Sometimes, one has friends and family surrounding them. Love, and hope and peace surround us like a blanket of warmth and protection.
Then... there is a storm. The windows rattle, the ground shakes, lights flash, and you are alone....
Sometimes when this happens, there are walls, there is a roof, and there is security, but not always.
Sometimes you find yourself away from everything safe, and dear to you. Sometimes, you find yourself in a place where-where if you don't keep moving, you will never move again.
They say that there is nothing new under he sun, they say that the only way to prove you have faith is by putting it to use. Of these things, I can attest to.
They say every Friend has an end...
If I were to put myself in a story right now, or paint a picture of how I feel, I'd be standing in the middle of a large open field. Before me, behind, and to either side, the lighting, and fire would be crashing around... and I'd just stand there, fear, but a level of peace.
I don't understand this peace I feel right now. I don't like what is going on, but I don't have to either. It's a test, and it is as far above me, as the sky is above the earth... So much, so many things... more thing than could ever be put down pile up upon my heart. Each one would have broken me asunder a year ago, now...
The lighting crashes, the fire burns, out of it, there are voices.
"You are just as guilty as I!"
"It must be done!"
"It's up to you-u-u..."
The wind blows my hair, no longer is it braided in a nice neat, but simple braid down my back, now it is a wild, crazy thing. Whipping around, being singed around the edges.
The pressure of the wind, and the clouds, and the fire beats down on me- and despite the voices, despite having a million hugs, from ten million lighting bugs, I feel, I am... alone- or am I?
Sometimes, it is all but thunder.
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No, I'm not allowed to say what is happening... But, I had a knock down again today... I wish I was able to walk through life without feeling any pain. I could do what needed to be done, but without hearing the crack of bone... without being the one that has to be the fire stop.
This too will pass.
Psalm 27: 1-4 KJV
The LORD is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? the LORD is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?When the wicked, even mine enemies and my foes, came upon me to eat up my flesh, they stumbled and fell.Though an host should encamp against me, my heart shall not fear: though war should rise against me, in this will I be confident.One thing have I desired of the LORD, that will I seek after; that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the LORD, and to inquire in his temple.
Cowgirl out.
I'm worried. I hope whatever it is it will pass soon.
3144286 Probably not... just pray for wisdom and guidance as we deal with the issue. And that he will reveal himself in it. And that my patience won't wear think.
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I will.
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