Please, Please Read. Please

(Yes yes, I know it looks really long, but please read it all, it means a lot to me.)

Okay, so I know you guys have probably all been waiting for when my next fic is gonna fuckin' come out, and I know I did the voting thing and I was totally hyping up the whole "Of Wine and Roses" deal, and I totally wanted to go with it.

I wish I could tell you guys that I have been diligently been working to make it as good as I've hyped, and that It's going to come out real soon.

The absolute truth of the matter is that I haven't written a single goddamn sentence. My previous blog posts where I've said I was sick, or had technical issues were basically all just one big lie. I haven't really done much of talking about my self here, other than as it relate to fics, but one of my biggest problems is my tendency to lie to avoid any sort of...undesired circumstances.

When I started post fanfiction and began to have a presence on the internet at all, I made it a promise to myself that I would remain happy, and never have a sad "Life is difficult","I'm leaving the fandom" or "All inspiration is gone" blog. I never blamed anyone who wrote that, since it was always the truth or what they felt, but it always left me (and I assume other readers) in a bit of a melancholy daze. I decided recently that the number one goal I have in life is to make people happy, and so I could never do something so sorrowful.

At the same time however, I made it a goal to never write anything unless my heart was in it, otherwise it would come out poorly (as readers of Tweerilee know). So, whenever I tried to write anything for "Of wine and Roses", I was left completely blank. I decided to use the trick I had done for Life on Bridleway of creating a deadline for myself, therefore forcing me to write something, anything at all, but it never worked. Scared of how this might be viewed, I decided to make up lies to get around this little problem, and wait until I was ready to write.

I was never ready to write. And so time kept on going. I found another fandom...and I was so immersed in that that I had less time for ponies, and watched the show less and less, I still loved the show, but without any sort of drive, I couldn't write stories about it.

I didn't know how to tell you guys about it...so I didn't.

I lied.

And to all the people that I've lied to about this. I'm sorry. There's really nothing I could do to make it up to anyone now that the damage is done, but I hope my sincere apology will be the first step toward repairing whatever trust I've lost.

And so, now that I've finally told you the truth of the matter, I would like to address the matter of OWAR. For those of you who are fans of the Game Grumps, You may know of a mechanism known as the "Fuck It Adjustment", for those of you who don't, it simply means that if something in your life isn't working out: Fuck it, move on to something else. Now, I know that this is probably going to upset you guys, and I am in no way going to blame any of you for that. But I've truly, one hundred percent lost interest in writing OWAR, the style of story, the background of it, the characters, everything. So, If you'll excuse me...

*Ahem*

FUCK IT!!!

Okay, now that that's out of the way, it's time for a bit of good news: remember how I said my passion for ponies had been waning? Well while that certainly is true, I decided I should still watch the Season 5 premier to at least give the show a chance. And while I was watching, this little number happened:

This guy?
THIS GUY?
This guy is fucking awesome!! That loyalty to the cause, yet strong, quick aid to rebellion! That wild spirit and adventurous smile! That AMAZING HAIR!!!! The second I saw him I knew, I KNEW, I had to do something. And so I've decided a new fic, staring the radical, new: Double Diamond.

Now, hold on, don't be alarmed my predominantly heterosexual male audience, this won't be a 2nd-Person romance, oh no, it's much more exciting.

I mentioned in an earlier blog post that I had plans for a fic where the relationship was based less on Fairy Tale Romance and more on a more rivalry-driven, love/hate deal, with a bit more spunky mare, so when I was trying to ship Double Diamond, an Idea came to me so perfect and outstanding, that I think I may create a new, well-supported ship (narcissism engaged).

And so, I'm very VERY happy to announce my beginning on the first chapter of Fire and Ice a shipping between this amazing new colt, and everyone's favorite showmare: Spitfire!!!!

I will, and I mean WILL be releasing the first chapter of this new story sometime this month:

Cross my heart and hope to fly
stick a cupcake in my eye!

Thank you to everyone who has stayed with me through this incredible hiatus, all of you who have given my previous stories love, and to everyone who read through this rediculously long blog post.

I know I end everything with it, but this time I truly TRULY do mean it when I say:

Danke!

-Edelweiß