Good bye.

As it hopefully has become clear from the headline, I am leaving the site. Why? Well, the reason is actually only one.

Solitude. Absolute solitude. When I first got on this site, just like any amateur writer I expected my stories would be a great success, would be critically acclaimed and featured in the Featured section - every writer's dream. Just like many others, my first story sucked - actually it had no chance to suck, since I deleted it after writing the second chapter - apparently, as some people in the comments have warned, it was about to turn into the traditional Mary Sue fic.

I started over. A totally different story. Although it wasn't very good, people liked it. It didn't get featured and didn't become a great success, but 4 likes to 3 dislikes seemed like something good, after my first story had overnight gotten 49 dislikes! There were also helpful authors in the comment section, who helped me with some stupid mistakes and taught me a lot about Mary Sues and how to avoid writing one.

After about a year, I turned around and looked back to the stories I had written. I didn't like them enough, so I decided to re-write them. I think the first story had improved significantly afterwards (now it had 8 likes), but the people in the comments were gone - nobody commented, except one user with whom I had communicated. Back then, I gave off the lack of interest to the fact, that I had deleted the previous comments to the story, since they were regarding the initial version of the fic. Probably this is the main reason. Yet, when I re- wrote my second story and posted it, all it got was 1 like and 1 dislike. It stood on the site for months, but got no comments or any other signs people were reading it (last time I checked the number of times it had been read was lower than 50). I posted a blog post recently, and for three days, the only one, who had seen it, was me. Now, as I was re- writing my third story, realization struck me. I'm all alone. All I get is feed from the groups I am a member of - no notifications, no PMs, nothing. Then I asked myself - why am I wasting my time writing a story nobody but me is going to read. For a long time I was satisfied with just writing, the joy of an author, but not anymore. This joy isn't worth the hours I spend in front of the computer screen.

The truth is, all authors have one chance before descending into solitude. In the beggining they get views, comments, even subscriptions. Nonetheless, if they fail to please the crowd, after some time, they will be left alone. Many writers succeed, and although they never reach the featured section, they still get views all of the time. That's because when they see people don't like a certain story enough, they leave it and write something totally different. I, however, am stubborn. I hoped to write a giant anthology, even though people dind't seem to like the stories that much. So, instead of doing what I should have, I just went on with the stories nobody read. I didn't take advantage of the boost I never realized I have, I thought it'd be like that the whole time. So, when people stopped visiting my page, I just went on writing, until finally realization struck me.

What reason do I have to stay? The only person, reading my stories, is me. What use is there of reading something I can imagine?

I am also pretty sure nobody will read this blog post. That doesn't really matter, since once I leave the site, I won't be able to see if somebody actually does read it.