The Dream Quest of Unknown Cynewulf · 3:36am Nov 24th, 2014
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Anyhow. Things are actually looking up for me. It's been a rough few weeks. Depression is a real thing, and it is merciless, and it cares not for one's needs and desires; there is neither Scythian or greek or Jew, man nor woman. Maudlin aside, I have been incredibly quiet on all fronts for awhile. Sorry about that.
If you've been with me for awhile, you probably remember the post I made when my relationship imploded and I lost all will to write. I obviously found that will again seeing as how I wrote later. But that event marked a long night in my life. The abrupt destruction of one's carefully constructed world is a nasty shock.
She actually texted me the other day. We had a decent conversation, civil, even pleasant.
It was a weight off my chest I hadn't even been aware of. Closure is nice, you know?
It's given me back a lot of the fire to write and live that the last few months has beaten out of me. I've been working on The Night is Passing and more and more I really feel like I know where I'm going. I wasn't exactly lost, but I had lost some of that teleological edge, that pull towards the promised end. So I'll be ramping up writing on Night.
This can only be a good thing - the healing, and the Night.
So you're past the worst of things. Glad to hear it. It's been quite a slog, no?
2613290 super long.
Just be careful to not let an ember come back as a terrible and consuming fire.
I rode that crazy roller coaster for eight years.
2613442 Hell naw, I ain't jumpin' back in.
From one recent separee to another, definitely glad to hear about the closure. Good thoughts.
2614374 Good, that type of thing is miserable and horrible and totally fuels my writing. I guess its win/lose
Closure is indeed a good thing.